[cmc3663]

Just got out of the hospital after a 5 day stay. I have Bipolar 2 and BPD. I had been having 4 days of depression and 4 days of hypomania for about 2 months which ended in me being extremely suicidal. Being inpatient is super tough. I am thankful I went and got put on meds but I really hope I'm not back any time soon. I am on 40 mg of Latuda because my doctor said it was somewhat okay for pregnancy. I'm nervous but hopeful. I really need this to work.

[wildflowerchild25]

I'm glad you got the help you needed and I hope the medicine works for you soon!

[xxblackrosesxx]

i'm glad you are getting help for your needs and recieving hopefully the right medication. good luck

[optimistic_dolphin]

i hope things get better for you soon
i am scared to go ip for my stay will not be less than a week and i will miss sch
but everyone around me thinks i need ip rn
im trying to postpone it as long as possible

[cmc3663]

Yeah I tried postponing it as long as possible too. It was really intense but where else do you get to see a pdoc every day? I already feel my meds working, because I was ip they could start me out on a higher dose than they normally would. I made tons of cool, new and weird friends too. It's an intimidating thing but you do it if you have to. And it's kind of like a mental illness right of passage lol.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Dear CMC. I'm glad you're making a good situation out of your ip!

[optimistic_dolphin]

Originally Posted by cmc3663

Yeah I tried postponing it as long as possible too. It was really intense but where else do you get to see a pdoc every day? I already feel my meds working, because I was ip they could start me out on a higher dose than they normally would. I made tons of cool, new and weird friends too. It's an intimidating thing but you do it if you have to. And it's kind of like a mental illness right of passage lol.

i know right, like the only way it can really get better is ip. outside it's forever and stuck, at least for me. I hv been ip for ard 26 times in 6 years... too many relapses. i see my pdoc every week. ip does allow quicker increase of dosage and prn med, which i cant get on the outside

[Keegan2015]

Originally Posted by optimistic_dolphin

i know right, like the only way it can really get better is ip. outside it's forever and stuck, at least for me. I hv been ip for ard 26 times in 6 years... too many relapses. i see my pdoc every week. ip does allow quicker increase of dosage and prn med, which i cant get on the outside

How on earth can you afford to go IP 26 times in that short a time frame?

[cmc3663]

Yeah 26 times is a lot. Do you go to therapy? I find that helps a lot to help the things that medication can't.

[optimistic_dolphin]

Originally Posted by Keegan2015

How on earth can you afford to go IP 26 times in that short a time frame?

I was just going in and out of hospital all the time. like real inpatient stay, and not just staying overnight at ER. The minimum is like 1 week. the most I have stayed is 3 months. I tend to relapse very easily when I am outside, esp when there is stress, the symptoms will unknowingly creep onto me. only people around me notice why and the difference. I get sent into hosp for suicidal behavious/thoughts, psychosis, paranoia, anxiety, mania, eating disorder. I don't know, it's either the ED or through follow up appointment at the clinic. it's weird I know since I see my dr around once a week or two weeks.

[optimistic_dolphin]

Originally Posted by cmc3663

Yeah 26 times is a lot. Do you go to therapy? I find that helps a lot to help the things that medication can't.

We don't have group therapy here. I have appointment with my pdoc like once every one to two weeks and we talk about how i am doing. I am also seeing psychologist twice a week, which only started a year and a half ago. This definitely helped me to cut down IP a lot, so last year it was like 3 times. These days when I have to go IP is something the CP can't help, like now with the violence and stuff. I do foresee another IP in these few weeks, coz I can't control myself when it happens and it gets so bad.