[Victoria'smom]

The only prn I have is clonazepam I'm paranoid, vaguely delusional, sick and by myself. The boys are on a two day trip. He picked up mucenex for me before he left. I ended up vomiting it up unintentionally, I guess my body does believe it's poison. I took the clonazepam after that and kept it down. I figure paranoia leads to anxiety so it was okay to take it? would you have? I have T on Thursday should I go in sick? I have pdoc in 16 days, I don't wan't him to give me more pills they're poison. T knows all this and he let me go home. I really don't think it's hospital level yet. Though I also believe my husband is cheating on me. I have my dog to help me with reality checks and if need be my son has a big closet. Did I do the right thing? how often can I take it if need be? Please don't mention hospital I've made it exactly 11 months today.

[Ocean Swimmer]

How many coping strategies have you learned from your T?
Or the forum?

Do you go to a support group thru NAMI DBSA ?

I have a theory that some of my ability to remain sane is based on when past traumas decide to stop hurting me.

When I bring an event up to my husband, he always says,"You told me that before.". It's as if just saying it once is enough to cure me forever.

My husband has a very close relationship with his former sister in law.
It may even be he respects and feels more affection for her than me.

She knows he's bad in bed. Her sister left him because he's not interested in sex. She also experimented with him and tried to teach him stuff,long before I married him.

She's also the body type he claims to be interested in, but her sister is that body type too and that went nowhere.

I guess I'm telling you this to strengthen you. A mental connection with another woman can be far more damaging than a one night stand.

So. Be strong. Look after yourself first. Don't imagine things. Wait till you have more information.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm going to rely on this board a lot in the next two. I'm trying to fallow t's advise about reality checking but that's hard to do alone. I have to rely on my dog as a reality check. My pdoc gave me clonazepam for mania but I think this is prn territory. I haven't been to nambi. It's hard becuse I feel I have enough info. but I know I have none.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I have a degree in psychology, a master's degree in a psychology related field and spent a good chunk of my career working with psychiatric patients. I know a lot about mental illness because of these things. A few years ago after a very close call with suicide my therapist pushed me into taking NAMI's peer to peer class. He told me I wasn't going to learn a lot and I could teach most of it but that I had to go to make connections. So I went and it was a really good thing. It was good to see that I wasn't alone with my illness and that others had big issues too and that none of my experiences with having to stop working which was killing me (nearly literally) at the time weren't shared with someone. The class is free and they even provided free snacks for us. I'd really recommend checking into it. It's better than the hospital.

[Victoria'smom]

H came home early because it didn't sit well that he was away while im so sick.

If you have a PRN and are feeling anxious, just take it. That's what it's there for. Don't beat yourself up for feeling bad.

[BlueInanna]

Yep glad you took it and kept it down. You did right thing.