[Ocean Swimmer]

I wonder if certain decades get a free pass from Bipolar.
But last year was one of my worst.
This year the Meds have been keeping me in a low grade constant depression.
I smoked the first time in 35 years. Stopped for 10 days now. Feel like smoking again before husband gets home.
I want to be active and productive without mania.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

I'm very sorry you're struggling again. But at least you had that long of a stretch of sanity. I'm almost 30 and so far I've been through hell so I hope as I get older I take the right steps that are for the best because so far I've done a crappy, careless job. I didn't even take my medication seriously until a few months ago! It's sad that it took me 12 yrs to do so. No one can predict the future with this illness though so all we can do is have a little hope , learn from our trials and errors, and stick to plain old meds and therapy. I hope you stabilize soon! I myself have been hypo for awhile now.

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[Ocean Swimmer]

Can you achieve any goals while you're hypo?

[violetgreen]

I guess, I've always been affected, just didn't have the label. Since childhood, I somehow got the idea that my life was a meaningful quest. (My all time favorite novel is Don Quixote.) Delusions may have been a buffer for some challenges. Today, I can look at past episodes and paint them happy or miserable, so I don't always trust my memory. I am "chatty" tonight, husband noted that, I feel happy, maybe veering towards brief hypomania. What does active and productive look like for you? I hope you get it pronto!

[jacky8807]

I have had small stretches of decency but since my psychotic break it's been rough
I must say I'm doing verrrrrrrrrry well now
Amend
Hallelujah
Yeeehaw!

[Skeezyks]

Hello Ocean Swimmer: I'm in my mid 60's now. I've struggled with mental health problems all of my life. However, I managed to hold it together pretty-much for the first 50 years. It wasn't always pretty. But I did it. It was in my early 50's when things began to unravel for me. Since then, I've kind-of gone up-&-down. During some periods I've done okay. But I've also been hospitalized twice. I definitely think that once one reaches their 50's it can get gradually more difficult to maintain control, so to speak.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Productive for me means getting workers at my price to understand how I want something built and build it. Making sure I have enough materials

[Ocean Swimmer]

Oh. No. I don't like that prognosis.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

Can you achieve any goals while you're hypo?

Nope! I screw so many things up when I'm like this. I actually lost yet another job two weeks ago because of my erratic moods. So I'm dealing with that pain. My bf pointed out to me last night that I'm getting nothing done around the house or BP wise. I told him to please bare with me until my next appointment that isn't until the 14th! I'm so jealous of those who get so much done while hypo but I'm just a mess dealing with losing my job right now. I guess you can say I'm mixed because I'm also pretty depressed over it yet I'm not sleeping and I'm talking up a storm to anyone that will listen, just trying to get my mind off things. I haven't been like this in quite a long time and I really don't know how to cope right now.

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Originally Posted by RxQueen875

My bf pointed out to me last night that I'm getting nothing done around the house or BP wise.

What does he expect you to do BP wise until the 14th?

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

What does he expect you to do BP wise until the 14th?

Well he has admitted a number of times that he believes we can control our minds and flat out doesn't believe in psychology! Yes I often wonder "what on earth is our future going to be like then?!" But since I've been diagnosed, I've dealt with friends and family that think the same too. He expects me to pull it together, get out of bed, do something, anything. We were through hell and back last night with me begging to just have some kind of compassion and arguing. I told him to spend one hr in my head and explained that I'm grasping for straws here trying to get a shred on sanity. I have a whole thread on here if you want more details. He knows I've been hypo for awhile now. He just doesn't get it! Yea I'm very frustrated.

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Originally Posted by RxQueen875

Well he has admitted a number of times that he believes we can control our minds

You need and deserve compassion from yourself and those around you... a bf tapping his foot waiting for you to decide to get your act together isn't going to help.

[raspberrytorte]

Things were bad for me in my early twenties, got good 26 - 28 (like 2008 was a great year for me), and ever since becoming a parent things have really gone downhill for me mentally and physically. I feel like hell. I look like I've aged twenty years. I was pretty stable in the three years before I became a parent. So far my thirties have been pretty lousy, complete with first psychotic break ever.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Oh Rasberry- maybe your hormones got messed up while pregnant.
Can you be tested?

RX Queen- I know exactly what you are going thru. When my husband is here , he's like , "You just spent the whole night in bed, how could you possibly want to still stay in bed?".
There's no real way to explain. It would be like trying to convince an Atheist that there was a God.

Lefty, as usual cute analogy. Toe tapping.