I am ALL over the map

Mrs. Mania · Mar 25, 2016, 11:45 AM

I laughed with the girls coming in to work for about 10 minutes. Then a girl on my shift came in and accused me of not finishing my work( it was unbelievably incorrect). I erupted like a volcano of rage spewing curse words and hurling insults. It lasted about 15 minutes and then I stomped out. I didn't even get to the parking lot before tears began rolling like a waterfall. I ran into my supervisor who freaked out at my condition. That was actually lucky, if she would have seen the volcano.......I'm still crying 6 hours

BastetsMuse · Mar 25, 2016, 11:49 AM

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Originally Posted by Mrs. Mania

I laughed with the girls coming in to work for about 10 minutes. Then a girl on my shift came in and accused me of not finishing my work( it was unbelievably incorrect). I erupted like a volcano of rage spewing curse words and hurling insults. It lasted about 15 minutes and then I stomped out. I didn't even get to the parking lot before tears began rolling like a waterfall. I ran into my supervisor who freaked out at my condition. That was actually lucky, if she would have seen the volcano.......I'm still crying 6 hours

Are you receiving treatment? If so, I think you might want to call your doctor and let him/her know that you're in this state and that you need help.

Mar 25, 2016, 12:04 PM

(((Hugs))).

Mrs. Mania · Mar 25, 2016, 12:12 PM

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Originally Posted by BastetsMuse

Are you receiving treatment? If so, I think you might want to call your doctor and let him/her know that you're in this state and that you need help.

I am medicated. My Pdoc is unavailable and I was told to go to the ER if symptoms persist or worsen. While I would really like to get something to get me through, I definitely don't feel ER worthy. I have been attempting meditation which slows or stops the tears for bits of time.

gina_re · Mar 25, 2016, 12:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Mrs. Mania

I laughed with the girls coming in to work for about 10 minutes. Then a girl on my shift came in and accused me of not finishing my work( it was unbelievably incorrect). I erupted like a volcano of rage spewing curse words and hurling insults. It lasted about 15 minutes and then I stomped out. I didn't even get to the parking lot before tears began rolling like a waterfall. I ran into my supervisor who freaked out at my condition. That was actually lucky, if she would have seen the volcano.......I'm still crying 6 hours

I've had days like that too. Fortunately it's not a regular occurrence. If it does become regular, well then I'm walking into my pdoc's office!
Please take care

Mrs. Mania · Mar 26, 2016, 08:30 AM

So I called in sick last night. Then I self medicated with alcohol and weed. It got me through the night, but now I feel like I 've been hit by a bus. + I can't believe I smoked. Now if I get fired, I'm f'd. I feel so incredibly low.

ComfortablyNumb5 · Mar 26, 2016, 01:54 PM

Reminds me of the day I got fired, quit, let go, whatever. Came to work as usual and then got called into the office. The nurses office, not the boss, not the office manager, but the nurse. She asked why my moods were so erratic. I said "I'm bipolar!" She said everyone in the office was talking about me. Oh really?! So I walked out in front of everyone, both middle fiNgers up and walked out. By the time I got to my car I was crying uncontrollably and on the phone with pdoc. Never went back and now trying for SSD because this isn't the first job I couldn't handle. I miss the job and the patients I worked with but the coworkers can kick rocks.

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