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Apr 06, 2016, 06:47 PM
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I am actually not doing that bad, but I am not doing well and kinda in a spiral of self-destruction (not severe yet): not taking meds, sleep pattern and things hard to explain (not instability yet, though, but complicated, growing impulsivity). Not depression.
Any general, practical, philosophical, encouraging thoughts? May it also help others. Thanks, if you have them. 
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Apr 06, 2016, 06:50 PM
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I just can't stand having BP under control, but I fear losing control of it very much. It's ridiculous.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Apr 06, 2016, 06:53 PM
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Damned if you do damned if you don't HUGS!
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Apr 06, 2016, 08:43 PM
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Everything is fine if you take less of your meds. Not taking 'em is risky. That coming from a risk taker.
C'mon, get serious. We need you here. Of "sound mind". Who else can write several newspapers a day that nobody understands?. Now you tell me.  Be safe, not sorry.
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#5
Apr 06, 2016, 09:47 PM
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Why aren't you taking your meds? Are you forgetting them or do you feel they aren't helping? I would see my p-doc to talk about why you aren't taking them if there is a cause for concern. If you are just forgetting them, set up reminders on your phone. ((HUGS)) Take care of yourself!
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Apr 07, 2016, 03:34 AM
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It's just, you can get better at expressing things in an abstract mind, you can get better at recovering from mania and depression.
But how can you win if you fight yourself? Seems rather pointless. I don't forget taking my meds or think they aren't helping. I "deliberately" don't, with seemingly full insight. Any thoughts?
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Apr 07, 2016, 03:37 AM
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Apr 07, 2016, 03:43 AM
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I am rather calm now figuring this out, so safe: there must be a solution. Not sorry: it's me trying for good as much as bad.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Apr 07, 2016, 09:15 AM
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You forgot your purpose or something. You just go on till you don't. Reasons... you just make those up as you forge ahead.
The momentum and the trajectory of life, what can YOU do about it? 
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Apr 07, 2016, 09:37 AM
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I am not living without a purpose. I won't just go on. Compensate for lack of focus, carelessness and exhaustion. That's basically depression. But more controlled must be better. BP can be useful by careful analysis and planning. It must be.
I think I just need to find more chaos by other means. And periods of more controlled exposure, basically experimenting, not just sabotaging. But thanks to all that gave encouragement/hugs: I could use it.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Apr 07, 2016, 09:47 AM
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But less meds (sometimes) was a good idea. Got me thinking: controlled exposure.
Thanks. 
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Apr 07, 2016, 01:04 PM
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I've been there before with being defiant about meds "just because," not that I haven't any issues with them - just because!
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