[TryingToMoveForward]

Firstly, after talking to someone on here I decided I really wanted to try Adderall for my ADD. Turns out people with seizure disorders can't take it. After telling my psychiatrist about my ADD symptoms, he asked me how am I capable of working at all. What kind of question is that? I have no idea how I pull it off, but I manage. What I was specifically aiming to treat were the memory and disorganization issues. Forgetting appointments, getting them confused, showing up at the wrong time...forgetting my cellphone and have an emotional meltdown because of it. Forgetting my wallet. This...is what's driving me absolutely insane. And the restlessness. Today I got stuck at the mall register and I was going out of my mind because I had nothing to do. I couldn't stay still, I paced, bounced, walked in circles, shifted position, did physical therapy exercises, drummed, patted, lounged, twitched, meticulously arranged, then fixed again, a few shelves. If there's nothing for me to do, it really stresses me out and makes me antsy. I need to be moving and constantly doing something. While online training is an option, I tried and couldn't focus or retain information, and got bored after a minute of trying.This was 4 hours straight of hell.

I did manage to convince someone to get a credit card though. So that's good for me.

Anyway, aside from being on the fringe of a restless spaz-attack, I realized I either need the open supervisor position, or I need to get a second job. Right now I can't make ends meet. I have a cat to take care of. They have me scheduled for only two days next week and its like I can't afford to pay all my bills as is. So I went on a hyper spree of collecting applications from around the mall, as well as the supervisor app.

I'm absolutely tired and hyper awake at the same time. Sleeping is impossible. I think I could be entering a hypomanic episode because today I was extremely outgoing and that's very abnormal for me. LOL. I'm feeling more confident, carrying myself different and pumped about working more hours though it means less time doing my hobby. This morning I was in tears about it and now I'm bouncing off the roof. Yay! I'm so excited!

But really...how I manage to accomplish things at work? Kind of a mystery. I had no idea how to answer my psychiatrist on that one. Wish I could have that Adderal though. Damn!

[pirilin]

Adderall gives me energy for 3 or 4 hrs.
But the comedown is terrible. I don't have ADD.
I don't see the focus part. I have never taken more than 10 mg at a time.
I've read Dexedrine is smoother. And I think Vyvance too.
The only one I'm willing to try is the Modafinil (sp) but it's expensive.
I hope you can take other stimulant besides Adderall.

[TryingToMoveForward]

Whatever helps with ADD. But doesn't cause seizure symptoms. I can't take the Adderall because I might have a seizure disorder, just undiagnosed. At this point I'm really only interested in treating specifically ADD because I'm on meds for everything else. I appreciate the advice though! If any of those help with ADD I will bring them up to my psychiatrist next time I see him.

I'm still bored, restless and irritable. I just...I need to go somewhere and do something. Downtime is a bit brutual. I should clean. I think I will opt to clean, because that is at the very least, productive.

[theenemywithin]

Forgetting, forgetting, forgetting! Maybe like you set something down and immediately you have something else on you mind and the thought of the object, you set down, was not in short-term memory long enough to enter long-term? Now, you forgot were you set it down.

[TryingToMoveForward]

LOL. That does happen to me! Or I think I put my wallet in my back pocket, leave the house. Reach back and bam, it isn't there and I'm like DAMN. My mind is scattered all over the place most of the time. Making lists helps a bit. As does writing down notes.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

IP they were discussing stratterra instead of adderall? I don't know much beyond that as I think I left the group about then but that was the behavioral medicine pharmicist's recommendation, I think for someone with epilepsy and a need for adderall.

[pirilin]

These were the good old days.