[lacerta]

Ok, so on my FB timeline a job add popped up. I got thrilled about it. Work from home, flexible schedule. Basically it's customer service by e-mails.
What bugs me is - I can't leave my current work. I don't really work there either, I just hang in. I work maybe 2-3 hours really, spending whole 8 there. I have probalby worked intensely whole 8 hours for 5 individual days really. So I had this idea that I could work at both at the same time. My husband says that this is not normal, I would burn out. I have never worked in customer service before, not even close to it.
I'm anxious to loose the oportunity. My current project at current job ends this year, after that I'll anyway will be just partially employed. Ok, I have 2 new project applications submitted, results to be announced in about 2-3 monthes.
Sorry for the long post, could you help me sort it out - am I reasonable or is it just another symptom? Thanks

I'm not clear enough on the situation to know if it's a symptom or not, but the first thing I wondered was if it would be allowed.

Guess I have a hard time imagining where a boss would be cool with paying you for work time spent working another job..

[Victoria'smom]

I wouldn't your husband says this is abnormal then I would look at it as a symptom. Are you having any other symptoms?

[lacerta]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I'm not clear enough on the situation to know if it's a symptom or not, but the first thing I wondered was if it would be allowed.

Guess I have a hard time imagining where a boss would be cool with paying you for work time spent working another job..

My bosses are total idiots. They never actually check what I'm doing during my office times. Hence I do my projects on time, then don't have idea that I'm just having fun on internet most of the day.

[lacerta]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I wouldn't your husband says this is abnormal then I would look at it as a symptom. Are you having any other symptoms?

I feel high level of anxiety.
Cannot fall asleep, but this started 1-2 weeks ago.
Need to talk more than usually, ashamed of what I said to vice prezident of company at the general meeting.
Have not acted out on any unexpected shopping desires, eg. sudden need of step trainter machine

[Victoria'smom]

So yeah I'd say you're a little up.

[fairydustgirl]

sounds elevated to me too...I once had 3 blogs open at one time, each about different topics while elevated, you doing two jobs at one time like that sounds similar...plus I have to concur that it most LIKELY is not allowed to work your second job while sitting at your desk at your first job.

the other symptoms you mentioned? yes...your husband saying something? yes...you need to talk to your pdoc soon

About the potential add-on job:
Is it a set amount of work in a specific time frame?
Or do you only take on as much as you want to?
If so, can that vary (as in can you take less when not up to it)?
If you realized it was too much and needed to quit, would it be a big deal? (What kind of committment is expected?)
Do you need the money?

In regards to trying to balance the potential job with the current:
If they found out would they likely fire you?
If that happened, how problematic would that be for you? (Income, benefits)
Would losing current job make it difficult finding another in your field?
If the field didn't matter, do you have skills for others that are viable?
How tough is the job market there?
If you didn't work on it during current job hours, would you have enough other time available?

You don't have to answer all these here if you don't want of course, but they are the kinds of questions you should consider. When we're going hypo/manic, we don't tend to see downsides and consequences, so those are important to think about and discuss.

I'm not saying you should take it (especially I can't get past the double time thing)or not. I think you should be checking in with you pdoc, because yes, you do seem a bit elevated. I throw the questions out there because, for me at least, once I get an idea and put it out there, I'm highly likely to proceed without thinking much more. Especially about consequences. Just something to maybe put the reality brakes on in case it is that way for you too.

[lacerta]

Thanks for advices and feedback. Wake up this moring still not able to calm down. Took lectopam I have for these cases, did not help much. Feeling agitated.

Innerzone
Thanks for the in-depth questions.

About the potential add-on job
I would have to dedicate 8 yours a day. Quitting would be easy on first 3 monthes even on a whip. I need money, but I can manage without it, at least for now. Next year is still foggy.

In regards to trying to balance the potential job with the current:
They just would not find out. I've worked here for a decade and noone has ever checked what I actually do. I'm on my own room, as far as I handle in work within deadlines, everything is fine. If I lost the job, it would be a disaster. No similar job opportunities for my very specific education given I'm on rural area. Other fields nearby have lower salaries.

Downfall is the last question - If I did not work at the current job hours, I would be overwhelmed. I cannot work for long hours for extended time. I guess I now believe I'm stronger than I actually am. My current job kills all the energy in me every now and then. I have to take in consideration that I have bipolar disorder. I need to care for my mental stability.
I think I'm relying on my past experience when I was lot younger and I could handle school perfectly, have many extra-curriculum activities and manage that all, but hey, it all has ended up with health problems.