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#1
May 08, 2016, 08:56 AM
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I just read an old post ... and wow it did not even seem like me ... as my moods change (or my meds) of course my views of things change too ...
it is like opening my journal and seeing how I have changed over time ... an on line public journal .... I only hope I am getting more compassionate ... 
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 Anrea, BipolaRNurse, gina_re
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#2
May 08, 2016, 09:42 AM
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| wiretwister
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#3
May 08, 2016, 09:53 AM
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I dont even recognize myself! I hope its because im finding my writing voice. Yeah, thats the ticket!
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May 08, 2016, 01:06 PM
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I found a printed copy from one of my first posts on here. I was still insisting that I wasn't bipoar....nope not me. My PTSD was still a greater problem than the BP......I've changed a lot. For one thing my posts are much shorter. Yes it is a surprise to come across old posts. I'd like to think I've evolved for the better.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#5
May 09, 2016, 11:09 AM
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I have learned 90% of the time, then I cannot commit to something or some idea or decision going on just 1 day. :/ I change too much all the time.
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#6
May 09, 2016, 01:00 PM
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Sometimes I post on here when I am more on the hypo manic or manic side so I look back and question what the heck I was thinking. I sometimes slide down into my chair in embarrassment whilst reading them at the Starbucks. I also will giggle at them.
I also forget my younger wisdom and it refreshes my youthful look on life. |
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#7
May 09, 2016, 02:14 PM
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I did that a while ago. It was pretty depressing. I think I tend to post a little more when depressed anyway. I just have to get the feelings out and having feedback from my family helps. But they're not all gloom and doom posts. I also definitely post way more now than I used to, however.
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#8
May 09, 2016, 02:47 PM
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My posts aren't that old, but I did ask for a lot of help when I first joined.
I actually joined because was in denial about my BP diagnosis and I wanted to "confirm" that I was bipolar. In hindsight, I should have thought about my reaction to ADs. I was in a deep depression, so I took Lexapro and instantly felt better after 1-2 days on it. lol. That should say something! Also, my pdoc, a couple of psychologists, and my therapist kept telling me I was bipolar. So yeah, there was that too. :3 |
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May 09, 2016, 05:53 PM
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I cringe when I read my old posts!
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May 09, 2016, 07:38 PM
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I just went back and read my very first post. It still has not changed. Lack of friendships...
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| apfei, MusicLover82, Nammu
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May 09, 2016, 10:15 PM
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I haven't been a really heavy poster so I haven't been shocked from old posts. But about a year and a half ago I was in a mixed psychotic state and all I did was write about my thoughts and feelings in my school note books during class, in word docs, or on scraps of paper at home. I went back and read some of them recently and it was enough to sufficiently scare the **** outa me.
I think it's crazy to see how radically different my thought processes and beliefs are when I'm that far gone, brings new meaning to the word "insane".
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| gina_re, Pikku Myy
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May 09, 2016, 10:26 PM
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Oh and don't even get me started on FB. I'm always going back and deleting my posts because I look so stupid. I post ALOT when I'm hypo.
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| Pikku Myy
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May 09, 2016, 10:28 PM
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I am with you there, lollll... from anxiety, panic, ocd, psychosis, mania, and depression.. I even posted from the psych ward, lollll
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May 09, 2016, 10:30 PM
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ohhh.. forgot about hypo and alphabetizing my spice cabinet, lollll
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May 09, 2016, 10:55 PM
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I've had to apologize due to some of my old posts and I bet if I read through them if throw out many more apologies. I can be an outright ashmole sometimes
. My compassion goes out the window when manic I'm afraid
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May 09, 2016, 11:57 PM
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I have found that, not so much with my posts on here (but I haven't been here that long) but more with my journal. Like when I'm hypo and I read things I wrote when I was depressed I can't imagine feeling that way, and vice versa.
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May 10, 2016, 12:06 AM
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Sometimes when I come down from a hypo episode I'll read my posts and not even remember making them
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May 10, 2016, 03:53 PM
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#19
May 10, 2016, 03:54 PM
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Look through the eyes of someone who loves you.... Or a pet. Then you will see your true worth.
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#20
May 10, 2016, 04:36 PM
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I don't read my old posts so much as read my old journals. Sometimes i am pleasantly surprised that i'm not the boring person i feel like so much of the time and my day are not nothing days at all.
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| gina_re
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