I need advice about therapy?

I been doing it for about 2 months I feel meh about it was helping me only like twice I guess my fault.
I think I want to take a break or find someone else.

These things bother me

*sessions are 1 hr each appointment though I am most the time free for me, there are times my thepaist was 30minutes late exclamation to help other clients on the phone I understand the needs to help others like me this kinda bothers me a little, she still apologizes though so I get it. I think it bothers me because one time I was 5 minutes late as work hold me back little bit I wanted to be showered and presentable than grease covered or smelly felt she was okay with it but subtle hint in tone she didn't like it I did apologize. Sessions seem short when she is late like sometimes 20minutes out I go.

*she wants me to write my life story & read it like show and tell, I told her I dislike this way I better just talking than wasting time to write my years that takes time at home and rather just talk about it but I am not a writer. I have told her this felt guilt tripped into it so I stopped doing it.

*Achevement list she wants me to write or keep small one for each date I won't lie after crap day at work or me doing excersize keep motivation going I sometimes forget. When I forget I kinda get guilt tripped disappointment towards me.

I do like CBT to train my thoughts and reading recommend books as homework but sometimes the homework is write life story and do an achievement journal. She getting me to do assignment that involves finding affirmations of positivey which are good but some of them she gives me seem like cloud 9 than logical I like logic positively not "I put my my faith in my ability to be happy." "I choose to be happy" these things don't click no how much she gets me to read them. There are days I can have such a good day out of no where for many days of feeling piece of crap on the floor I try faking the I feel good I can do this many times before seeing a thrapist other wise I wouldn't be their.

I just don't know if its me being idiot about this but each time I go don't feel comfortable about going anymore.
Therapy isn't meant to be always flowers and daisys just this feel like something doesn't click I just want to see if there are different ways of fixing me in therapy.
I have tried discussing the issues I have with some of this she comes back to me saying I being like this for many years I would take time I try to beleive it but just doesn't feel right way she gives the sentence. Could be just me.

Meds help now I can get up out of bed most days than I used to.

If you're not happy with the therapist that you're paying for, there is nothing wrong with finding another one IMO.

I agree. There are other therapists who show up on time and are helpful and don't use guilt.

Thanks I just didn't know what to do, I don't know who to talk this with.

Thinking this my solution.

I'm sure it's not always easy, but I hope that you find a new one that is respectful and meets your needs. Good luck!

I had a bad T once, switching was very hard. I had already developed an attachment to him. It was worth it. Once I was away I was able to really see how bad he was.
You can search around, and most therapists will give you a free consultation, so you can tell if you like them or are a fit. Feel free to ask them lots of questions. This is your time and money, and your choice.

This is a fairly old thread, but I want to throw out some stuff I know about finding good therapists. There are many TYPES of therapy.There's process therapy, where a person engages in their emotions around something. Some therapists stomp you down if you cry or shout, which is unethical if you ask me. There's talk therapy, where you discuss things. Some therapists offer suggestions. I love my therp because he does that. Other therapists believe "you know the answer in your mind," and expect you to "discover" the solution for yourself. You'll be really lucky, imho, if you can get funding for in-depth art therapy or dream therapy. I had PTSD, and Jungian Art Therapy completely cured that. It's hard to find a good art therapist, and most of them only do little "fun projects" not deep therapy like I had. There's a CBT - cognitive behavioral therapy -- which I find very helpful BUT it's not the be-all and end-all for bipolar, that's for sure. A good way to get started on that is with Dr. David Burn's workbook book "Ten Days to Self Esteem." He has several books, but the workbook is the best. Start at the beginning and work your way through as far as you want to go. I insist that my therp and I come up with homework, and that he give me a "15 minutes left" announcement near the end of the hour. That's because often it's near the end of a session that the most useful, deep, and helpful ideas turn up. Also, sometimes it takes a while before heavy emotions come up, and I always want to COME OUT OF AN EMOTIONAL STATE BEFORE I LEAVE. When I first had therapy many years ago, I'd be in an emotional state, and a therap would announce out of the blue, "We're out of time." I still get angry when I think of t his bad therapy. The two most important things are: (1) How you feel abaout the therapist. Does s/he like you, and you can feel that? Do you like him/her? Do you trust each other? (2) You gotta see progress. Are you improving in the areas where you have problems? Are you getting stronger? Areas that helped me were getting "bully proof," and learning how to maintain reasonable boundaries on how I allow people to treat me. Learning to turn my back and walk away from rudeness or abuse. I'm working on how to deal with rude electronics. Electronics that neither work properly,nor have any customer support on the phone. That's my huge issue now. Electronics have taken over just about everything, we are dependent on them, they fail, and we have no recourse. I call them rude electronics, although of course it's not the equipment that's rude. It's the decision makers at the top of the companies who treat their buyers like dirt. When I was young in the 1950s, people bought products that lasted -- for more than a generation. We had fountain pens, and we had a "relationship" with our special pen -- ONE pen. When I was 8 I saw my first ball point pen, and was shocked that we were supposed to throw a pen away when it ran out of ink. Etc etc.