Positive things I've done today #4 :)

Trying to enjoy some alone time on my last day of break until I go back to work.

Contacted a friend when I was feeling down and wanted to cry.

I got out of bed when every cell in my body was screaming not too. This 18 hours of darkness a day is killing me.

played trivia challenge

did 2 sets of anagram solving

have breakfast

didn't harm myself

listened to positive music

copied some music to cd

Joined Spotify and downloading heaps of music from The Beach Boys-Pet Sounds to Eminem, Lana Del Ray, The Smiths, Teenage Fan Club and, Jimi Hendrix. Plus various singles. I am obsessed with having the perfect collection. At leat it is relatively free and passing time.

How do you like Rexulti?

Got out of bed and went into work, into a job I despise, but at least it pays the bills

doing work - I had trouble focusing on work lately, but now am making an effort in the right direction!

Wrote a poem. Starting to write again after almost a year of not writing.

Last night (Tuesday) I had the most amazing, fun chat with my nurses. I went to talk to them as I was SI with intent and they ended up making me laugh and smile. What incredible people. So skilled at their jobs. They did medicate me and take me seriously but managed to turn it around in about 40 minutes. Wish I could hug them.

Talked to my friend and grounded myself by getting the opinion of someone who's intelligence and integrity I trust. Talked about a very important matter which is deeply effecting my every breath and movement. I feel frozen in shock and disbelief and while my friend believes I'm sane currently, I'm definately feeling hyper vigilant and off.

I put cghristmas music on (I am not sure if it will help me with my feelings, but their we are)

ate breakfast/ sorted out food for later

that's all

i've not done laundry yet, I don't care for my trivia challenge, and as far as i'm concerned, i'm not really bothered about my well-being today

I went into work early so that I could have some quiet time to catch up on my work.

I put away the dishes, took a shower. Not much else.

Trying to keep myself amused while IP. Can't concentrate so listening to music, surfing the net, watching stuff and pacing. Sooo bored

it's far tooo early to do much positive stuff

eaten breakfast and got up is about all i've done so far

(oh and opened my advent calendar, though I don't think eating chocolate at 20 past 9 in the morning is entirely a good thing)

finally sorted out food for later

trivia challenge (scoring 8 out of 10 on a quiz about the song hacoona matata, rather ashamed as I know all the words to that song (or so I thought)

didn't harm myself

You wanna compete, keep score of consecutive days without self-harm? If you think (as I do) it'll help.

I'm at 2 (for now).

Edit:
Ok, maybe not. Your choice.

I went to Starbucks, talked with a friend on the phone for a long time and ordered pizza for dinner. However I had a long nap and am back in bed until it's time to leave for church choir.

I did my hair, which is a big step because lately I have been sliding into depression and letting my personal hygiene slide

I helped my Mom clean the house this morning.

Had an MRI on my jaw. I have TMJ. Hoping they find no structural damage. Took me 20 years to do something about it. Am getting a splint so hopeful that, plus the exercises I am to do will ease the problem.

Staying off eBay