Avolition

It's what maybe most clearly distinguishes schizophrenia from BP.

In walking a fine line between BP and SZ, I experience it, sometimes more, sometimes less. It's one of the reasons I often can't afford to "relax".

I believe it's what in some more mystical/religious texts is called a characteristic of the "half-wise": wise to the (almost) utmost extreme (due to a psychotic disorder), understanding how they don't choose their path in life, but, paradoxically, that determines their path, one where one "sits back and relaxes", where nothing one does makes any difference.

Is anyone familiar with the experience? Any ideas how to stay more fully wise, if it's a sign of wisdom at all and not just delusional.

Anyone? You don't have to share my analysis of course.

Just an avolition that remains regardless of your mood?

You should add an avolition definition. I had no idea what that word meant. I had to look it up and I did that yesterday but now don't remember it but my reaction was that I was pretty sure I've never experienced it before.

So, I don't have insight, but someone else probably will.

Ah, yes I probably should.

Lack of will, not in the depression sense because that would be more like seeing no options and possibly a lack of willpower. You still (rather) have something you don't or you wouldn't be depressed, like not being depressed. The the more you lack a will, the shorter or less severe the depression, I believe, in general.

It's being satisfied with anything. It's a great achievement to have such a lack of will, it's like the highest stage of consciousness in some religions, but it's also very dangerous: you may believe nothing matters, which isn't the same thing. That's why it's half-wise and it can lead to homelessness for example, because anything is fine.

I have some of that. Sometimes more like BP, so less so, sometimes more like SZ, or just a mixture. It needs to be in balance: one isn't better than the other.

Oh. Is this like how in buddhism the only way to be truly happy is to come to the realization and acceptance that your life is perfect the way it is and not continuously seek posessions, etc., and more and more, thinking it'll make you happy but it doesn't because you'll just be seeking more?

Forever!

Yes it is. But the paradox is that what you do as a result of that wisdom determines your future, so what you do matters, but it doesn't, in a way.

I have to admit that I am so lost. You are making my brain hurt, icare. I'll think about this and get back to you.