I am losing all strength to keep fighting this. It's like a force is tugging to pull me back to the hole that I've been trying to escape from for so long. I made very little progress, but at least I've been able to tread water and stay afloat. But, it seems it was all in vain, because that black hole sure has a wide opening. I feel if I slip into it again, I will never make it out again alive, as I have neither the time nor energy to escape once again. I feel the end is calling.



The words to the song below define me perfectly.

Life, it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye

[Blaire]

There is a saying "no feeling is final." This one certainly is not. If you can't fight this feeling right now, please go to the hospital where you can be safe.

Metallica! Nice. So sorry you're struggling so much. it will get better. You will cycle out of this. Keep fighting!

[UpDownMiddleGround]

It doesn't matter how long you have been fighting as long as you keep fighting. Sometimes the cycles take longer than others. I don't know how long you have been feeling this way, but I remember a couple of months ago, I was talking to my pdoc about how I felt like nothing was helping me pull out of a pit of darkness that I was in. He talked to me about it how my mood would shift eventually. He told me to trust him on that. He was right. (It took an antidepressant to help, but he was right). I have that to hold on to now. Think back, have there been other times that you have felt like this? How long did it last? Did you eventually feel better -- even if it was two months later?

[Victoria'smom]

Metalica I use to love that song. It won't always be this way.

Originally Posted by Lsswwdictb

I am losing all strength to keep fighting this. It's like a force is tugging to pull me back to the hole that I've been trying to escape from for so long. I made very little progress, but at least I've been able to tread water and stay afloat. But, it seems it was all in vain, because that black hole sure has a wide opening. I feel if I slip into it again, I will never make it out again alive, as I have neither the time nor energy to escape once again. I feel the end is calling.



The words to the song below define me perfectly.

Life, it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye

How are you doing today?