Questions: Bipolar version

Bedtime. I dread sleep for some reason.

Do you exercise regularly?

no.

do you have a life motto?

life's a ***** and then you die, I guess

someone once said that to me when I was younger- well their exact words were.. life's a ***** and then you die,

so screw the world and let's get high

lol but that's a bit long so stuck to the first bit only

is anyone apart from me still posting here?. (lol I had to ask, I feel i've overtaken the thread)

I'm here, just haven't had ready answers to the last few questions.

Do you have to change insurance/Medicare plans next year?

Yes my private insurance coverage will end.

Who do you love?

Same as BeyondtheRainbow- I'm reading, but there have been a lot of questions lately aimed at only a specific population, such as people who are looking for peer support. I am not, so I didn't answer the question.

I am in love with my husband and happily married. I also dearly love my son and family. My family is everything to me.

Question: Do you think people with bipolar can get to and maintain stability, or is therapy required? Realistically

I think it depends on the person. I don't think I'll ever not be in therapy (and I think my pdoc requires it of me even if I wanted to stop). But I don't have a lot of things in my life that I get from therapy so it's necessary. However I know for others that is not true.

Have you ever gone to a support group?

no.

i'd probably end up getting so wound up by loads of people their i'd just walk out

how has 2016 compared to 2015 for you (better?. worse?. the same?)

So much better. Thank God for Clozaril.

Do you struggle with the holidays?

We ignore the holidays and don't do birthdays, either, with the exception of my brother's small children, to whom I send gifts. We don't travel. I haven't left Oahu in almost eleven years. I rarely leave the house. I operate within a large and unspeakably beautiful padded cell.

Do you ever feel the urge to reach out and apologize to people that you hurt long ago during episodes, the way AA encourages alcoholics to apologize to their victims?

Yes and have done so on several occasions. I've also written many letters I never sent.

What is your favorite thing about yourself?

I have an obscenely long tongue. I had to go to speech therapy when I was a kid. I can not only touch my nose with my tongue; I can clean it.

Do you think guilt, shame and regret may have done physical damage to your body?

Yes. I used to battle with whether my pain was a result of this or if I was actually dying from a disease.

If you celebrate the holiday at all or ever have, what is your favorite holiday food or drink?

Mashed potatoes and peas.

Do you have a best friend that you can trust?

Yes although I struggle with trust still. But we've come a long way.

What is your favorite distraction from symptoms?

music.

I breav music.

what would you like to accomplish in 2017

Get my finances in order
How do you do with caffeine? I'm having a coffee right now and usually have a pop in front of me all day

1 large coffee a day and sometimes... Pre workout but it's like crack and can send me FLYING if I'm hypo so I have to be careful

What are your big triggers?

Being around people who are drinking and using drugs.

Does your SO have a mental illness as well?

Yes. My husband and I met in the psych ward! He was detoxing from a decade of alcoholism and I was suicidal. He has anxiety and depressive disorders.

Question: Is your significant other the "keep your chin up, mind over matter" kind?

i'm single and proud!

question: if you're single, are you looking for someone?, or if you're with someone, are you happy with them?

I'm happy with my partner, though holy cow do we have trouble with moods in our house. We are both extremely sensitive. He has depression and anxiety and i of course have bp

What are your go to behavioral tricks/tools to get you through the rough times?

music, journalling, posting here, watching commedy, holding my crystal, online gaming, shopping, etc.

when you have told someone you are bipolar, what has been your most positive reaction?

My now partner said, I have that too. Turns out he doesn't but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

If you could have 1 superpower what would it be

Invisibility, I would love to be able to sneak onto airplanes and into places I shouldn't be.
If you could be anywhere in the world doing anything at all right now, what would it be?