Doubting the Diagnosis

I think I am every single MI all rolled into one most of the times.
Sure I'm a little goofy but ya gotta luv me!

I've learned the hard way, more than twice, that when I'm up, I need to stay on the meds. I always want to go off them, but coming off of Paxil et al is harder than the worst of the lows. I have never experienced the crazy like I did quitting Paxil cold turkey. Don't do it!

I've quit Paxil cold turkey a few times. I get physically ill. Dizzy spells, brain zaps and buzzing, sick to my stomach......and it lasted months. Even weening off it, I still experience brain zaps for months to years one time. Paxil used to be all doctors go to drug of choice for me because I was considered to have MDD and social anxiety. Paxil was one of the only approved drugs to treat both. I went manic on it a few times, but especially after my son was born and they put me back on it. Paxil is also a serious weight gainer too. Well, at least for me.

I could have written this except that I was diagnosed at 15 and that compliance is no longer difficult (I've hurt too much too many to not remain compliant). But, yeah...this is my bipolar story.