[BeyondtheRainbow]

I can tell my mood is trying to go somewhere, I think up, but I can't tell where. I nearly always have June hypomania and didn't this year so this may be that a little late. I hoped the Clozaril was going to get me through it. It's so annoying because I am more energetic and got more done today than I have in one day in so long today but I'm also getting teary at Facebook things that aren't emotional. I'm having trouble sleeping, both falling asleep and getting the same number of hours of sleep I usually do (although I'm getting plenty of sleep by the hours). I'm kind of up, down and everywhere but not severely enough to say it is mixed or even really dysphoric and yet not to one end or the other either. Just edgy, which is so different that usual with the Clozaril that it feels a lot more than I would have considered it before Clozaril.

I don't even know what to tell my pdoc at this point; nothing yet but I typically contact her if things are off for more than a few days and I don't know how to describe this. I'm really glad I made a therapy appointment for this week; I'd intended to take the week off.

My neighbors are setting off fireworks (and have been for what seems like a year) and that's always a bad experience. We live at the top of mountain and the booms echo as they hit the valley so the noise is 4x what it would be (which is way too much anyway since PTSD makes me really jumpy with that kind of noise).

[bizi]

The 4th will be over soon and so will the fireworks....for your sake.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[Gabyunbound]

Sounds like you put it perfectly: "edgy." Maybe if you get in touch with your pdoc you can start with that?

Who knows where these feelings/this mood will lead and that uncertainty must be so hard. Since you don't know at the moment and it doesn't look like you're about to soar too high or crash too low in the immediate future, I'd distract myself and try not to worry too much while still keeping an eye on things so you can be sure catch this -if it turns out to be necessary- before it gets bad.

I'm sure you know that it's best we tweak our meds before things get too out of control --that's your pdoc's job to figure out, your job is to take care of and be kind to yourself!

[Wild Coyote]

(((((( Beyondtherainbow ))))))