[Wanderlust90]

I know there are others with much worse than what I'm facing but I still have this little voice in my head that tells me I'm a lemon. I'm 26 years old, & I have psychiatric issues, neurological issues & now probable endocrine & reproductive issues. What will I be like when I'm 80?

This may be TMI just a warning. So along with the whole seizure thing I've also not had a period for 4 months. I saw my GP expecting the full work up, he did a few blood tests & said go see my pdoc, Stelazine can raise prolactin & cause amenorrhea so I figured that was the problem. My prolactin came back normal, so I went back & he still said see the pdoc, I pushed & he ordered a pelvic ultrasound. He said he was surprised when the results came back, he didn't expect it but I have polycystic ovaries (PCO), I will likely have trouble conceiving. I've always been really irregular, missed months on end of periods, took until I was 16 to actually get a period. PCO sucks but there's help when the time comes. I don't have any of the other associated symptoms just the fertility issues, so I can't really call it polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS).

What annoyed me was that he seemed to believe it was my weight but wouldn't say that to me, just "go see your pdoc." Not long after my therapist, who works in the same office & so shares the same patient information, started asking me about my weight. My BMI is 18.7 at the moment. I don't think I have an eating disorder, I'm not necessarily scared of gaining weight but I don't like it either, it doesn't take up much thought though. Like I don't eat when I'm not hungry, when I'm hungry I eat whatever I want whenever I want, I just don't eat for most of the day until late afternoon/evening. I just don't have an appetite before then, even with marijuana, but then I'll often binge at night. It gives me reflux sometimes but other than that causes no clear problem yet. I think it's mainly anxiety, I can't eat unless I'm comfortable. I know it makes me foggy by midday at work, I'll take the ensure!

[Wanderlust90]

My pdoc said much of the same thing as my GP, it's not the stelazine it's your weight. Neither he or I were aware of the polycystic ovaries at the time though.

(((((((hugs)))))

[MusicLover82]

I can empathize with you with health problems on top of bipolar. It's anxiety-inducing, isn't it? I've been dealing with possible side effects of my medications and/or withdrawal symptoms lately, and I also have severe acid reflux and gastritis. The acid reflux wouldn't be the end of the world if it didn't adversely affect my voice so much. I am a singer and voice teacher and I NEED my voice. I get angry and anxious about it a lot.

Anyway, enough about me. I just wanted to say I understand.

[Ellie_jo]

Lemons are my favorite fruit 🍋

Hugs!

I feel like a lemon too. Like my parents, husband and kids won the unlucky lottery to get me. This is depressive thinking and not healthy so keep an eye on those thoughts and make sure not to feed into them if you can help it.

I'm so sorry you are dealing with so many health issues right now. I can relate and know how awful it feels to be so broken In so many different ways. I'm very sorry you will have trouble conceiving. I really can only imagine how difficult that would be. My heart goes out to you.

I'm very sick on the daily. I'm 41 and I'm always terrified of what I will feel like when I'm 80. I've already got terrible and painful arthritis, so aging is scary. I decided a few years ago that I would work out, gain muscle and be healthier at 80 than I am now. Maybe it's wishful thinking, but it keeps me hoping and hope is a good thing.

Great big hugs going your way (((hugs))). Keep hope alive.

[Standup2me]

Wander...are you sure you don't have an eating disorder?
What worries me is that you know what yours is, whereas I don't think that most people do.
And that you are 18.7 which is just a smidgen away from underweight.
Are you sure?