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Jul 18, 2016, 06:36 PM
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...where you want to curl up into a ball in the corner of a room and smash your skull into the wall repeatedly?
Yeah, I'm having one of those days. Depression makes those sorts of things "desirable"... because it's like "wow, I hate myself so much; i deserve this." It's not even self harm, though. I'm just pissed and depressed. So... it's more of a frustration thing. But of course, I don't think I'd actually smash my skull. I don't want a headache before going to bed... because that'd really suck. Maybe y'all can relate |
 12AM, Anonymous59125, bizi, OctobersBlackRose, Wander, Wild Coyote, wildflowerchild25
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Jul 18, 2016, 06:48 PM
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Pretty much every day!! Hugs Blue!!
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Jul 18, 2016, 06:53 PM
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Im good to have one of those days once a week its the only thing in my life i can count on
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| Anonymous59125, bizi, OctobersBlackRose, Wild Coyote
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Jul 18, 2016, 07:13 PM
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It's mind-blowing when we're well what twisted things depression tells us - like you described wanting to smash your head into the wall. I've definitely had one of those days you described.
One of the most common things in my head during depression that makes no sense when I'm well: I WANT to stay depressed. When I'm depressed, some part of me doesn't want to lose that depression and suffering. It makes no sense to want to increase my suffering, but depression tells me, "you are nothing without mental illness and depression. If you got better, you would have no substance. You would be an empty shell. Depression is all you have, so you're better off staying here." When I'm well, I don't think any of that. I love my life and find joy in many people and hobbies. It's almost unbelievable how powerful bipolar is and how much it wrecks our minds when it's out of control. I wish you hadn't had a day like that. Those SUCK.
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Jul 19, 2016, 12:53 AM
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Absolutely have I had days like that. I have actually hit my head against the wall many times (and yes, it does give you a BIG headache). Sorry you are feeling this way. Hope it passes soon.
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Jul 19, 2016, 01:13 AM
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Yes, especially this week, and there have been times where I have smashed my head into a was, not recommended. Hope you feel better soon, hugs.
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Jul 19, 2016, 01:15 AM
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Yes....I can definately relate. Unfortunately I have banged my head against the wall when in this mood....you are right about the headache it causes. I'm glad you didn't actually do it. I hope you feel better soon Blue. Hang in there.
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