[Crazylovehate]

Recently dx with bipolar. I was in a divorce due to my mood swings. Since dx my husband is on board to go through therapy to understand what I'm going through and just explaining the illness to him.
He wants to know what occurred during my last manic episode. I remember some parts but not in order or logical.... I'm not sure if my thoughts are what really happened or has developed because of his constant questioning. I feel CRAZY!.... What do I do?

Sorry this happened to you.

The good thing is that your husband is willing to understand your struggles. You are very lucky to have someone in your life who loves you that much because not everyone's partner is willing to go through therapy like this. I think he realizes how important therapy is for him right now.

Anyway, I don't always remember my manic episodes in full detail either, so that makes at least two of us... but I think a lot of people have the same issue.

I wouldn't worry too much about trying to remember details like that. I usually go nuts when I focus too much on remembering details that I know I can never remember 100%. I think the best thing to do is have your husband tell you what he saw, then use his feedback to help you piece together the puzzle. Best of luck

[lacerta]

I'm sorry you have to go through difficult times. It's hard to put up with diagnosis, it took me more than 2 years to be able to accept it to some extent. Take it slow, give yourself time, be kind to yourself. It's great you are getting support from husband. Are you also in therapy and getting help from p-doc?
Welcome to the forum, I hope you will find support here!

Memory loss during a manic episode is common. All you can do is be honest with your husband and let him know this. I'm sorry for your struggles and hope therapy will be helpful for you and your husband. ((Hugs))

Originally Posted by Crazylovehate

Recently dx with bipolar. I was in a divorce due to my mood swings. Since dx my husband is on board to go through therapy to understand what I'm going through and just explaining the illness to him.
He wants to know what occurred during my last manic episode. I remember some parts but not in order or logical.... I'm not sure if my thoughts are what really happened or has developed because of his constant questioning. I feel CRAZY!.... What do I do?

Welcome! Tell him it's common to not remember all of what happened in manic episodes. Tell him you don't remember.

So you were getting divorced but it's on hold? And now he wants to know what you did during your manic episodes. He's constantly questioning you? Can you see where this may be going?

Well, maybe I'm wrong. Everyone above is giving him an attaboy. Hmmm....

[Wild Coyote]

Hi,

Welcome to PC!

As mind-boggling as our behaviors may be at times, others may also find they want to understand and have lots of questions.

Was the divorce a previous divorce or one with this same husband?

It's hard to tell the type of questioning you are enduring and/or his motivations for questioning. Many times, concerned loved ones are baffled and also become protective. Yet, maybe you are referring to a more insidious nature of questioning? Really cannot tell from your post.

I think seeing a therapist together is a great idea!


WC

[xRavenx]

Sorry about all that you are going through. It's true that you can forget certain things during manic episodes. Although it is good to hear that your husband is supportive, I can understand that the fact he brought up divorce must be very hard to deal with. Although couples therapy could be very helpful in getting your husband to better understand BP, I think it is also of utmost importance for you to do some thinking about what you want. Do you feel that you are being judged for having BP by him and that this can cause future problems or that you are walking on eggshells around him? Sometimes these things can actually worsen mania from all the anxiety these types of issues cause. I've been there before. Were there any other underlying issues in your relationship? I'm not asking you to answer here, of course, but just some things to think about.

In other words, it is important for you to focus on yourself and your own wellness right now. Some people fall into a trap of just worrying about their partner's approval, and this is unhealthy for anyone struggling with Bipolar (or anyone for that matter since it can lead to codependency in relationships). Just my two cents and some things to consider. ((HUGS))

[Unrigged64072835]

Sorry to hear that you are going through a rough time. I do hope things work out for you, whether you are with your husband or not. It's hard to explain things about mania in general, much less remembering specific things.