Just don't know what to do.

I'm not ok, not harmful to myself, but still not ok. I feel like I need help yesterday. I WANT to go to the hospital, just don't see how I can with my responsibilities, I'm home schooling my son most of all. I told my husband I wasn't ok and he offered to call in to work (he works nights) but I told him I'll self medicate and go to bed. So he is at work worried and I don't know that I can go to sleep and I just don't want to be alone.

I'm so sorry I just saw this. How old is your son? Can he stay with relatives for a couple of days?

I am really so sorry. If you feel you have to go to hospital then you have to go. Like Miguel'smom said... can't your son just stay with relatives or a trustworthy friend for a few days, just so you can get stabilised and find your feet again?

I really hope you can work something out.

He's 15, he can stay home because his dad is home when he is not working. He has to have access to the computer for his classes.

I don't feel like my husband supports me on going to the hospital.

Talk to your husband tell him you really need this and it can't wait.

((((((((( vj )))))))))

Your health is important too. If you don't take care of yourself you're not going to be around to take care of them. If you need to go then go. I know it sounds selfish but sometime self-preservation can be.

already have, he said if I need to, go but that was after he told me to fake it till I make it and I got to do what I got to do (referring to taking care of things around here including my pets)

I think you should go before it gets to a point you have no choice. It'll be quicker if you're not at the point of crisis.

Sending lots of hugs.

Just don't feel like it's an option.

What are your other options? IOP? more time with a T? journaling? What will keep you sane through this?