So i am getting discharged in 2 days and the hospital has set up a case worker with a specialised community team called the early intervention team. I met the case worker today she said the service is for young people who are experiencing some kind of psychosis. She said that i have to be honest about taking my meds and that if she thinks i am getting unwell she will send me back to the hospital she wants to see me again 3 days after i get discharged. I am scared the whole stupid reason i took the damn meds was so i wouldnt have to outside now they are going to check up on me. I have once again ruined everything.

[phaset]

I know you don't want to take the medication and feel like you don't trust them, but it seems to me that they want you to be safe and healthy. This is what they have determined is the best way to achieve that. Can you make the most of it and let them try to help?

[hopeless2015]

I think if you get out and stop taking the meds your just going to end up back in again. I know this is hard but try to comply for a bit and see how it goes. Hugs

I am trying but like i just dont trust them i dont even know if i can keep taking the meds outside ugh why is everything so hard. I really dont even feel like i need the meds they upped my dose too today from 10 to 15mg i am just i dont know what to do.

[Victoria'smom]

Eden maybe the injection is better for you. Then you comply and only have to take Med. Once a month.

I dont trust that that is all they would be injecting.

the case worker will come to my house as well like my house it is scary and weird and everyone keeps saying this will be good for me and to be really honest and open but i feel like this is dangerous and bad and i dont know. i feel like i am about to cry. do people really truly think i am sick? like everyone keeps saying that sort of thing but like idk i just dont feel like any of the things i have been dealing with are weird like it all feels normal to me.

[cincidak]

I can't diagnose you obviously, but what are they saying is a symptom of psychosis? I've hallucinated before,and knew that's what had happened. I have heard voices, and I've had paranoia. I've been delusional, thinking that somethings were true that absolutely were not. I keep a journal. It helps me to some degree determine if my thinking , or emotions are not baseline normal.

[Gabyunbound]

It sounds like being distrustful (and maybe oppositional) is your baseline and maybe -at this level- doesn't have to do with your psychosis --is that fair? I'm thinking that maybe therapy can help with that and with other things. Have they set up a therapist for you for when you leave? Did you already have a therapist? I think this is essential.

No one can force-feed you meds. If you don't want to take them, you're an adult and can make that decision. But if you don't, there will be a lot of drama with your support team and you'll end up back in the hospital, and you don't want either of those things, right? So your best bet is probably to take the meds, if these are your goals/what you want.

If you want a lot of drama with the support team and to end up back in the hospital, the quickest and easiest way to do that, is to not take your meds. If you don't like the side effects, you can talk to your pdoc about changing them.

Best of luck with your discharge plan.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by eden1515

the case worker will come to my house as well like my house it is scary and weird and everyone keeps saying this will be good for me and to be really honest and open but i feel like this is dangerous and bad and i dont know. i feel like i am about to cry. do people really truly think i am sick? like everyone keeps saying that sort of thing but like idk i just dont feel like any of the things i have been dealing with are weird like it all feels normal to me.

Eden, from my point of view you have been very unwell and are still unwell to a lesser extent now. The meds do seem to have helped you and things may get clearer for you if you keep taking them as prescribed and be honest and open with your treatment team. It may take some time for you to get a decent perspective on all that has been happening. You have been through so much.

I really hope the transition from hospital to home goes smoothly and safely. Do you have any friends or family who are supportive right now? We are here for you so keep posting. Take care.

i dont want any drama at all i never wanted that hence why i never told anyone what was going on. maybe it is safest to go back to that.

i do have some good friends and my family is trying their best. it is hard though everything is hard right now.

[bizi]

I think you had become so accustomed to the psychosis that that was your "normal" now that you are better you may feel off. Dealing with reality can take time and energy. psychosis can be entertaining to say the least but at some point you have to come back to reality as foreign as that seems.
keep posting.
bizi

Originally Posted by bizi

I think you had become so accustomed to the psychosis that that was your "normal" now that you are better you may feel off. Dealing with reality can take time and energy. psychosis can be entertaining to say the least but at some point you have to come back to reality as foreign as that seems.
keep posting.
bizi

I feel stuck between the 2 like Peter I hope I didn't get stuck that would be really bad.