[gina_re]

I'm down to my last week or so of me coming off of Lamictal. Because I had seen another pdoc in the practice, I requested this because I felt as though this med did nothing for me (other doc wanted me to stay on it). My cognitive abilities were a mess and PMS was just the worst. But as I come down, I feel nothing. I'm not happy, I'm not sad. I simply exist. If people talk to me, I talk back. However, I no longer feel like going out of my way to socialize. It's easier for me to hide this at work since the "office refresh" has rearranged seating assignments, I can pretty much go unnoticed. But I was just sitting here thinking about friendships (and maybe I'm getting carried away in my head here). Since my mind is always going, thoughts flowing, I keep talking. Now, I since I feel no desire to, I do not. The two coworkers I have that I am closer to aren't really talking much to me either. They both know of my disorder and are very understanding and empathetic and they give me my space whenever I needed it. But I wonder if because how that helped me in the past that they will just keep limiting contact or am I really that engaging that I somewhat force myself upon others because I can't shut myself up most times.
I feel somewhat like I did prior to this med merry go round. I simply exist. Is this really me? Or is the extra social version of myself the real me or is that simply the meds? My mind is focused and I can be productive at work, but life is gray and bland.
I joined a support group a couple of weeks ago. I love going and some of them get together outside of group for social activities (e.g. luncheons) and I have participated in them. But I have no desire to have a deep meaningful bond with anyone right now because of how I feel. However, I enjoy their company because I can talk about my issues without being judged.
I feel as though I'm rambling now, but was it really worth coming down on the Lamictal? Will this feeling go away? Maybe I just need to give this some time to completely wash out of my system.
Thanks for reading.

[raspberrytorte]

It's probably just part of coming off lamictal. I felt similar while going off it last time. You should start feeling better soon, if it's because of that.

[hopeless2015]

Sorry your struggling right now. I hope this is also from coming off the Lamictal and passes for you. Hugs!!

[bizi]

Originally Posted by gina_re

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I feel somewhat like I did prior to this med merry go round. I simply exist. .

I am sure this is not how you want to feel....
Why did you go on meds in the first place?
just questioning. Are you taking anything else now to replace the mood stabilizer/lamictal?
sorry I have not kept up with your threads.
bizi

[wiretwister]

keep us in the loop .... other wise I'll worry about you ...

[gina_re]

Originally Posted by bizi

I am sure this is not how you want to feel....
Why did you go on meds in the first place?
just questioning. Are you taking anything else now to replace the mood stabilizer/lamictal?
sorry I have not kept up with your threads.
bizi

I have no idea why I was put on it, honestly. I was prescribed a small amount when I was outpatient. After being discharged, my depression came back and a new pdoc increased it. She's tweaked the dosage all the up to 300mg and back down. Switched from taking it at night to taking it in the morning and back. I just don't see the point if I have to change it so many times. I'm also on Trileptal, Wellbutrin, and Effexor.
You're not missing anything new, really. Haven't been posting much anyway.

[Unrigged64072835]

Sorry to hear about you going through this. Hopefully the withdrawal symptoms will end and you'll feel better soon.

[Hashi/bipolar mom]

It sounds like your brain chemistry is still in the midst of adjusting. Just like it takes time for your brain to adjust to a new med, it's the same as we taper. Hugs!