[Wanderlust90]

I know in the whole scheme of things my problems are not that bad but stressors are just piling up.

There's the epilepsy dx I received yesterday from my neuro (even though the actual seizure was 4 months ago, so no driving until December still), I'm only casual at work now I've moved & now I'm only getting 2 shifts a week & work is calling up cancelling shifts because it's quiet. I have a mortgage to pay, a car loan & my partner doesn't get paid regularly because he is a trade & gets paid sporadically. We're still owed a months rent which I now REALLY need & I doubt the tenants will be paying anytime soon if at all. I now have to do night duty shifts or move hospitals, both options of which are really stressful for me. We don't even have a couch. It's like things get better then my hopes are dashed again. My mood has been good & im so scared of it all going wrong for me again. I no longer have the backup of income protection or anything like that as a casual worker. They also found I have polycystic ovaries & I will likely find it difficult to concieve, that & im now on an anticonvulsant increasing pregnancy risks for me if I did manage to conceive (which I'm not sure we can even afford for me to have the option of falling pregnant now anyway with the work situation, certainly can't think about IVF). Do I move back home & rent our house out again to afford it? Do I just take the plunge & try to get work at a new hospital & risk the stress causing a mood shift again?

I'm just stressed. It all seems too hard sometimes.

Originally Posted by Wanderlust90

I know in the whole scheme of things my problems are not that bad but stressors are just piling up.

There's the epilepsy dx I received yesterday from my neuro (even though the actual seizure was 4 months ago, so no driving until December still), I'm only casual at work now I've moved & now I'm only getting 2 shifts a week & work is calling up cancelling shifts because it's quiet. I have a mortgage to pay, a car loan & my partner doesn't get paid regularly because he is a trade & gets paid sporadically. We're still owed a months rent which I now REALLY need & I doubt the tenants will be paying anytime soon if at all. I now have to do night duty shifts or move hospitals, both options of which are really stressful for me. We don't even have a couch. It's like things get better then my hopes are dashed again. My mood has been good & im so scared of it all going wrong for me again. I no longer have the backup of income protection or anything like that as a casual worker. They also found I have polycystic ovaries & I will likely find it difficult to concieve, that & im now on an anticonvulsant increasing pregnancy risks for me if I did manage to conceive (which I'm not sure we can even afford for me to have the option of falling pregnant now anyway with the work situation, certainly can't think about IVF). Do I move back home & rent our house out again to afford it? Do I just take the plunge & try to get work at a new hospital & risk the stress causing a mood shift again?

I'm just stressed. It all seems too hard sometimes.

i have PCOS too so does most of my family and we have a big family and not really anyone had trouble conceiving so dont get too worried about that as for the rest i dont know but i hope things get less stressful for you soon.

[Coffeee]

I hope things look up for you soon! How about getting a free couch from Craigslist? It sounds like for money's sake you should work at another hospital. Think of it as you are already stressed about lack of money so the stress there will not be about money.

[Wanderlust90]

Thanks Eden1515, I really appreciate the reassurance & I hope that I also don't find it too hard to conceive

Coffeee (I'm cradleing my hot cup right now haha), I think I will have to try another hospital, do casual there to try it out first & Suss it out abit.

I'm feeling abit better this morning, thanks again xx

It definately sounds like you are going through it right now. That is a lot of stress and I know how difficult it is to make decisions when it feels your whole world is falling apart. I'm glad to read your update that things are a bit better today. Take it one thing at a time and keep doing your best....it's all you can do really. Are there any charities in your local area which could help with the couch? Are you seeing a professional who might help you make the best decision on perhaps moving or changing jobs right now? Good luck with everything.