[Leselase]

My illness has made me lose my job, unable to work and with no money. When I'm manic I have so many ideas of projects I want to start, but I am so untalented at everything I never am able to sate this urge to create. When I'm depressed I feel so bored, just an intense boredom because my life feels so meaningless. All I have to do with my day is watch tv, it's just so dull and boring. It makes my urge to spend so much worse. Does anyone else experience this boredom with bipolar? It's so difficult to explain

[Unrigged64072835]

Sounds like you're also dealing with a bit of perfectionism. Can you just start something for the sake of starting it, just to do it for its own sake?

I'm the same way. I have lots of stuff I want to do but I'm overwhelmed with the complexity of it. Now I just leave something out and I get to it when I can. No rush or anything.

[MobiusPsyche]

I think you explained it very well. I keep telling my therapist that I'm tired of waiting for bedtime to come, so I can go to sleep and the long day can finally be over.

Gradually this is getting better. Now I feel this way for only four or five hours a day, instead of ten hours a day from six months ago.

[Leselase]

Thank you both its such a relief to hear people are experiencing the same problem.

[st0psign]

I just turned 27, I've been in college 10 years, and have found out I can only handle one class at a time. this leaves me with lots of free time not having a job either. so I too spend my days binge watching Netflix or hulu. and yes I think it an exacerbate symptoms because it just gives your brain quiet time to run a muck. I think I know where you're coming from.

[Espurr1989]

I will gladly share with you guys some of my to do list! Grad school, full time work, being an only child with aging parents that are divorced, and married with four pets doesn't leave me much time to do what I want. I did experience that feeling though when I had about five weeks between internships. We just can't win! I feel like I'm on a hamster wheel that won't stop spinning.

I'm rarely bored....I'm either in a battle of the mind or caught up in something. I do battle perfectionism and the thought that I'm not good enough at certain things to even bother....but I feel that is a self-esteem thing. On the rare occasion I'm able to sit and reflect on boredom....it's a horrible and suffocating feeling because it comes from not enjoying anything in even the most mild of fashion.....that just sucks but it's from depression I believe so not sure what the "cure" is. I'm sorry you are bored....doesn't feel good, that much I know. Maybe it's time to learn something new? I'm absolutely positive you have things you're good at...maybe you just haven't found the ones you enjoy yet. Keep looking and trying. Good luck.

[newtobipolar]

Originally Posted by Leselase

My illness has made me lose my job, unable to work and with no money. When I'm manic I have so many ideas of projects I want to start, but I am so untalented at everything I never am able to sate this urge to create. When I'm depressed I feel so bored, just an intense boredom because my life feels so meaningless. All I have to do with my day is watch tv, it's just so dull and boring. It makes my urge to spend so much worse. Does anyone else experience this boredom with bipolar? It's so difficult to explain

OMG! YES!!!!!!!

I experience Bipolar EXACTLY the same way. I have a million unfinished projects bc I don't have any creativity, and no follow through. i watch a TON of TV, and I try to make the best of that. I have my kids, so I devote all my free time to them. When they are with their dad 2 nights a week, I am lost. I just want to sleep. I don't have any friends, no hobbies, nothing in particular I want to do. Maybe there are some things I would like to do, but I can't get up enough energy/initiative to do them.

My life=Literally...My kids, work, TV. There is little if anything else.

Sound like you???????

[Leselase]

Originally Posted by newtobipolar

OMG! YES!!!!!!!

I experience Bipolar EXACTLY the same way. I have a million unfinished projects bc I don't have any creativity, and no follow through. i watch a TON of TV, and I try to make the best of that. I have my kids, so I devote all my free time to them. When they are with their dad 2 nights a week, I am lost. I just want to sleep. I don't have any friends, no hobbies, nothing in particular I want to do. Maybe there are some things I would like to do, but I can't get up enough energy/initiative to do them.

My life=Literally...My kids, work, TV. There is little if anything else.

Sound like you???????

Very much so! I am exactly the same.