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Oct 19, 2016, 07:26 PM
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Hey everyone! I'm new to this forum but not to bipolar disorder. I have been diagnosed four times since I was 17 (mid 20's now). I quit my meds and counseling in January because I was convinced the meds were making me fat and the staff was conspiring to make me gain weight. I'm usually a very responsible person but I just can't seem to stay on meds.
I have been depressed and paranoid since, thinking people are stalking me and that random tweets on Twitter are somehow meant for me. I moved away to start a full time internship in August and it's been downhill since. I constantly feel like staff are conspiring to get me fired. I have been having bouts of rage at home and highly restless sleep. I have visions of brutally cutting myself and almost seem to crave it. This morning I heard a demon laughing and taunting me while I was driving to work. It feels like there is an evil force trying to take over my head and I'm clinging onto dear life to keep my sanity. I'm embarrassed to tell anyone about my symptoms. I feel highly pressured to prove myself at work but I'm afraid I won't be able to act like everything is fine for much longer. I keep telling myself I'll get over it and it's not a big deal. Still, I'm scared and not sure what to do. |
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#2
Oct 19, 2016, 08:18 PM
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It might be a good idea to get back with a psychiatrist. The paranoia and hallucinations must be uncomfortable. There are weight neutral meds that you can try.
You could also look into natural treatments, although I really recommend seeing a Pdoc because of the psychosis. I don't know of any natural treatments that treat psychosis. It's better to try to take care of this now, especially since you have a high pressured job. The stress of the job will just continue to make you unwell and it may not end well for you. I've pushed myself at work too far numerous times and it always ends in hospitalization for me. This last time I took time off and managed to avoid a hospital stay (last February). You need to take care of yourself first. I hope you find some comfort soon!
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Oct 19, 2016, 11:35 PM
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Yes it is time to get back on meds. call your pdoc and get help. psychosis is no fun and can ruin your life. you may need to take some time off work to get stable.
keep posting. bizi
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Oct 19, 2016, 11:47 PM
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See a psychiatrist as soon as possible. You can probably find some medications that will not make you gain weight as long as you're watching what you're eating. Some meds that have helped me without causing weight gain were Lamictal, Latuda, Abilify, and Trileptal. Risperdal in lower doses doesn't hinder my weight-loss efforts, either, but that can be a weight-gainer for some people. I've lost 70 lbs while on meds, so weight-loss and weight maintenance can be done while on meds.
HUGS!! You deserve to feel stable and sane. See a doctor ASAP.
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...Out of night and alarm Out of terrible dreams Reach me your hand! This is the meaning that we suffered in sleep: The white peace of the waking. ~Edna St. Vincent Millay, "Song of the Nations"~ Diagnoses: Bipolar 2, OCD, Chronic Worrywart  Meds: Lithium (reducing), Trileptal, Latuda, Risperdal, Klonopin and Xanax PRN |
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Oct 20, 2016, 10:07 AM
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It would be best to see a psychiatrist and get this under control. There are meds that are usually weight-neutral, but you need to ask a professional about that.
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