[asassysquid]

Hey guys, I was wondering if anybody would care to shed their light on this concerning topic for me, with in the past 2/3 years of my life *current age 17 nearly 18 male * I generally have a passive nature towards most things that happen in my life an example of this could be that one of my siblings will be getting yelled at for not doing one of their chores and I will pick up on their argument and I will just do it for them for no reason like I don’t wish to be praised for doing it I just think I can’t be arsed to listen to them be useless anymore and that I might as well do it because I know I will, and it can be quite dulling/depressing however I feel that it never really gets me down to a level of depression that is an area of concern such as thinking of actively self-harming, however recently it has begun to get worse as I grow older and I tend to feel useless, exhausted sleeping less generally around 4-5 hours because of school and just more robotic in nature, however once these chores or tasks have been done *excluding school work* XD I feel like an empty husk with nothing to do and feel like I have a lack of personality, however I will also gain these insights so to say and I will feel ecstatic like on a natural high and that everything is brilliant and I want to hug, touch everyone I’m with I also think about sexual actives more however these are solely in my head and in control, for example I’ll sneak behind someone and hug them and go * bellehh* or How are you my darling, but I wouldn’t go to someone and touch them inappropriately or something like that. I will feel on top of the world usually associated with me bouncing around the room or outside if I’m outside, so ruining ahead of people squatting down making a random noise then run back to the people I’m with, skipping waving my arms spinning round e.c.t or just blatantly initiating a conversation about either explicit/offensive/personal topics and not feel at any concern to how they are viewed such as I went out to watch fireworks today and I felt the high, and after walking/skipping e.c.t to the place I looked at a fireworks and kept walking around our group of friends and looked at one of them and said* do you think this is what people in Syria consider a lullaby ? Referring to the explosions obviously * note* I do realise that that statement is incredibly offensive I do apologise, I will also tend to eat a lot more than I usually do bare in mind I’m a 17 year old guy so I normally eat quite well. However I am writing to this board as I think these symptoms are loosely related to bipolar and mania however these feelings of a natural high will usually come around 5 times a month at maximum and at minimum 1 time in 4-5 months which is lower than bipolar episode and as well the actual duration of these highs they will usually only last around 4-12 hours which is significantly less than what I have researched so I would like to gather your opinions on the matter, what I should do concerning getting it looked at and generally any other statements you have on this and would be thankful for any input you put in
P.S sorry for how poorly written this is, it is the first time I have tried to express how I feel and never had fantastic grades in English ha-ha.

[wildflowerchild25]

It could be something like cyclothymia, which is a milder form of bipolar. If it's interfering with your life, I would encourage you to get to a psychiatrist if possible and share your concerns with him/her. Then you can find out what's going on.

(((Hugs))). I can tell you are concerned but I must admit I did not understand the question and had a hard time following your post. I'm sure it's me and not you, comprehension is something I'm struggling with right now. I've had people read websites and books when I wanted to educate them further on a certain topic. Perhaps this could be helpful to you.

[bizi]

have you taken the bipolar test here? upper right hand side of screen.
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