so many methods of trying to make yourself feel better.. coming on here to talk about it, distract yourself with something you like, breav and count to 10, I can't do any of the ****ing stuff.

I failed big time yesterday.

I let the fireworks and the memories get to me. all coping, ground, right out the ****ing window.

I let it get to me and I had the worst night ever because i'm so ****ing thick and can't follow advice about how to cope.

what is the god dam point. I mean, here I am with all these coping methods and stuff, and I can't use them.

their must be more wrong with me than I thought

namely my brain is ****ed beyond repair. If i can't remember to cope.... wow.

uggg

[Coffeee]

Dear shattered sanity, it's too bad you had the worst night ever. I'm hearing that you're upset that you didn't think of your coping skills. That's OK it can be hard to remember them when you are in the thick of it.
I am always impressed by your resilience to come on here and post with such eloquent words about what are very difficult experiences for you. That's why I think you are wonderful and maybe not as ****ed up as you think.

Originally Posted by Coffeee

Dear shattered sanity, it's too bad you had the worst night ever. I'm hearing that you're upset that you didn't think of your coping skills. That's OK it can be hard to remember them when you are in the thick of it.
I am always impressed by your resilience to come on here and post with such eloquent words about what are very difficult experiences for you. That's why I think you are wonderful and maybe not as ****ed up as you think.

thanks,

thank god for this place sometimes.

hopefully it will stick around for a while yet. it is all I really have

[JustJace2u]

Yesterday was a rough day for me as well. It seems all I wanted to do is sleep. When a friend asked me if I wanted to hang out last night it took all I had to get myself to say yes, because if I hadn't I knew she would worry about me.