[Theresa1991]

What about your talking behaviour concerning bipolar?

If I see that in the right way, being in a mixed episode I will overanalyze my behaviour, read on psychologic stuff hours on end and talk to everyone about it in a hypomanic way. Getting straight hypomanic I will just leave it out of the picture like it never bothered me and go on chatting about all the good things in my life way too fast, never mentioning that there might have been a problem two days ago and talking about way too private things (like telling my boss I was surfing on the Internet because I didn't have any interest in the work and therefore did it poorly). In depression if it's yet not too bad to the point that I cannot talk to anyone I will call people crying saying that there is something utterly wrong with me and that I immediately need to see a therapist. How are you guys doing?

[Wild Coyote]

Hi Therese,

Welcome!

My behavior -- specifically talking and interpersonal exchanges does vary with mood changes.

Are you feeling stable now?


WC

Hi Theresa. My moods can change my behavior too and I talk way too much when hypo and when....when very manic I will often times becomes completely silent (if paranoia is too high and I'm sure everyone is out to get me). Sometimes when manic I think I'm the sanest person alive or to have ever lived. This sure is a confusing illness. I hope you are doing well now. I would love to hear more about you and how you are feeling now. (((Hugs)))

[Wander]

I can relate. When hypo I love to share my joy enthusiastically. the world is bright and nothing is wrong. Depressed I don't speak much as i don't have the energy and can't find the words. Mixed I tend to switch between talking rapidly, usually about dark stuff, or being silent, trapped in my inner world. When manic i have pressured speech and talk fast but can also get lost in my inner world and become very quite. Most times while manic a small voice inside me tells me it is best not to share my thoughts as they are far from normal and I want to appear normal to most people.

Welcome to PC. Post away. We are here for you.

[Theresa1991]

Hey guys,

thank you so much for all the answer and the warm welcome in this forum. I feel that it is already helping me a lot. I know the feeling of best keeping my thoughts to myself in some phases and usually feel like I am hiding something very important and am kind of fake.

At the moment still not stable, on weekend when I wrote the first post I was really desperate, got way better yesterday and became kind of too busy, dancing in my room all day and talking and reading and cleaning like crazy and today kind of wanting to vomit and afraid I might suffer from some deadly desease. Haha, it's kind of new to me to say this stuff out loudly and feel like I have to add "but no worries, I am not crazy" and then I remember that you probably all know these things and feel hugely relieved xD

Glad to see you back and getting better. Yes, the good thing about this place is you can say what you feel and we will likely understand. No explaining required....we get it. (((Hugs)))

[bioChE]

No worries about being crazy. Welcome to the club, nothing surprises us.