[miss_rainy]

So... for the first time I realize it was mania for the first time. I mean I always knew something was wrong when I was acting crazy but now I know and I really want to tell my social worker. They think it's just anxiety/depression (my social worker and psychiatrist) but I knew something was being overlooked. I feel high as a kite and I feel like I'm mentally all over the place and really hyper. But at times I feel like I'm going to jump out out of my skin and few random suicide thoughts go across my mind, even though I'll never do it. It's like the early stages, I want to cut or harm myself when something bad happens
I dunno...

Originally Posted by miss_rainy

So... for the first time I realize it was mania for the first time. I mean I always knew something was wrong when I was acting crazy but now I know and I really want to tell my social worker. They think it's just anxiety/depression (my social worker and psychiatrist) but I knew something was being overlooked. I feel high as a kite and I feel like I'm mentally all over the place and really hyper. But at times I feel like I'm going to jump out out of my skin and few random suicide thoughts go across my mind, even though I'll never do it. It's like the early stages, I want to cut or harm myself when something bad happens
I dunno...

That sounds very unpleasant and I'm sorry you are feeling so badly right now. Can you come contact your doctor now and get their advise? I think you need some professional assistance ASAP. (((Hugs)))

[Coconutzo]

Oof.
Sending good thoughts your way. I get those feelings when I am manic too and it can be so scary. Stay safe, and report back so we know you are ok.

[miss_rainy]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

That sounds very unpleasant and I'm sorry you are feeling so badly right now. Can you come contact your doctor now and get their advise? I think you need some professional assistance ASAP. (((Hugs)))

I tried but my social worker never answered back and now frankly I don't have to because I think he won't believe me. I mean I'll try when I get back but I don't know. Thanks for the advice though.

[miss_rainy]

Originally Posted by Coconutzo

Oof.
Sending good thoughts your way. I get those feelings when I am manic too and it can be so scary. Stay safe, and report back so we know you are ok.

Thanks for the positive thoughts. I'm OK, today is a new day and not as bad as yesterday. I'm keeping myself busy and staying away from triggers.

Originally Posted by miss_rainy

I tried but my social worker never answered back and now frankly I don't have to because I think he won't believe me. I mean I'll try when I get back but I don't know. Thanks for the advice though.

Tell him how you were feeling. I know it almost feels irrelevant and pointless and can even sound like it's coming from an entirely different person when we talk about it after an episode....but your doc needs to know. (((Hugs)))

[miss_rainy]

I know it feels like your exaggerating, like you made the whole thing up! I would hate to open up and they don't take me serious... Again.