[1278]

So I've been okayish for the past few days, which for me is a miracle, but I can't be happy, because usually I take 1 step forward, then 10 steps back. I'm basically waiting to crash and burn once again. History has proven this true especially for the last 2 years. Now the meds I've been taking could be causing an issue with my eyes, and I can't say I'm surprised, things never seem to go my way. I don't even have the energy to be angry anymore, I basically have no idea what's going on with my illness, my life in general. I'm frustrated but what do I do? It's like I've totally lost control of my life, and I don't have the energy to give a f**k. I just need someone to say it will be okay, even though I know it's a lie.

[winter4me]

There will be times that it IS OK, they may come and go but they will BE
If you are feeling OKish....take it up a notch and enjoy it (yeah I know, it is hard because the fall feels harder...but it isn't really...or so I tell myself)((((((((((((big hug)))))))))))))

[Wander]

It must be a horrible feeling. You will be ok again. I hope it is soon

[gayleggg]

I've found that in bouncing back and forth for 32 years just when I think I've hit rock bottom I come back up and vice a versus a. I find I always surprise myself by coming back up. There is hope for you. You can get better.

[hopeless2015]

I'm sorry your feeling this way and I hope things turn around for you soon. Hugs!!

Originally Posted by 1278

So I've been okayish for the past few days, which for me is a miracle, but I can't be happy, because usually I take 1 step forward, then 10 steps back. I'm basically waiting to crash and burn once again. History has proven this true especially for the last 2 years. Now the meds I've been taking could be causing an issue with my eyes, and I can't say I'm surprised, things never seem to go my way. I don't even have the energy to be angry anymore, I basically have no idea what's going on with my illness, my life in general. I'm frustrated but what do I do? It's like I've totally lost control of my life, and I don't have the energy to give a f**k. I just need someone to say it will be okay, even though I know it's a lie.

You know what, I really do believe it will be okay. Then it will be crappy again then okay again then exceptional then round and round. That is life whether you have this illness or not....but those highs and lows of the illness really make for a more exhilarating and often times terrifying realities for us with the illness. It sounds like you are at a pretty bad low. Are you safe? Please try to hold on to any sliver of hope you can find and hold tight. (((Hugs)))