[vintagexsoul]

I'm moving into my own apartment this coming weekend. I haven't lived on my own since 2010, when I became disabled. Both excited and terrified at the same time. The reason I had a psychotic break was due to living on my own thousands of miles away from my family and I couldn't handle it. I'm terrified I can't handle this, even though now I'll only be half an hour away. While I'm scared of ending up in the hospital, I also want to take the plunge because I need to be independent. I need to get away from my parents.

I am trying to tap into the girl who decided to move to Texas from NY because she was in love, and to attend grad school. That kind of fearlessness.

Originally Posted by vintagexsoul

I'm moving into my own apartment this coming weekend. I haven't lived on my own since 2010, when I became disabled. Both excited and terrified at the same time. The reason I had a psychotic break was due to living on my own thousands of miles away from my family and I couldn't handle it. I'm terrified I can't handle this, even though now I'll only be half an hour away. While I'm scared of ending up in the hospital, I also want to take the plunge because I need to be independent. I need to get away from my parents.

I am trying to tap into the girl who decided to move to Texas from NY because she was in love, and to attend grad school. That kind of fearlessness.

It's understandable you are scared but you got this and it will be wonderful. I hope the fear dissolve into fearless soon.....although a little fear can save our lives so save a little bit channel it into something productive. (((Hugs)))

[vintagexsoul]

I'm sitting here feeling a little amused about feeling so anxious about moving half an hour away when I moved thousands of miles away in the past. It's kind of funny. I do got this. It will be challenging, but it will be wonderful. I need to be able to cope and handle life stressors.

[Acorn Oaktree]

Just imagine all the ways in which you can exert your independence when you get your own place! Try making a list of all the ways that it will benefit you, and all the things you want to do on your own, like a bucket list!
Best wishes

[vintagexsoul]

I decided I will be alright. I'll make it and a lot of my fear and anxiety have gone away. I can certainly be independent again. I'll make that list though as a good reminder!

[JustJace2u]

Hang in there. I was just talking to my t about this sort of thing yesterday. As much as I like living alone, there are times I miss having the company of a roommate or significant other around. Unfortunately I don't live anywhere near my parents (I'm in Chicago and they're in Pittsburgh). At the age of 42 I keep telling myself I need to stop being so dependent on them for everything, but at the same time I don't want to end up being homeless either.