[LadyShadow]

I haven't posted or been around these forums in a while, because well things were going great for me, but like the bipolar wave it all came crashing down. I am hollow, and so empty. I have so many people in my life and they all cannot bring me comfort in my worst state that I am now.

Why do we push people away when we crave company so badly? I want to be comforted yet I don't want to be bothered. It is so confusing, frustrating, perplexing and just leaves me feeling so sad.

I am broken. I have nothing to my name, and will probably end up homeless one day. The future feels so bleak, and the present feels painful.

Why was I cursed with bipolar, especially this horrible low? I love to ride the highs, but when I am sinking, it feels like my whole world is falling down.

I am hollow, I have an empty heart, I am depressingly bipolar.

[Wander]

Sorry you feel so hollow. It is an awful feeling. Is makes many of us push people away but you have reached out to us. We are here for you. Post as much as you need

[gayleggg]

I think most of us feel that way at some point. I know I don't want to be bothered by people when I'm feeling my worst, but get upset if it's like nobody cares. Give yourself time and it will get better. That's the only good thing about bipolar, it changes just when you are at your darkest moment.

[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

I haven't posted or been around these forums in a while, because well things were going great for me, but like the bipolar wave it all came crashing down. I am hollow, and so empty. I have so many people in my life and they all cannot bring me comfort in my worst state that I am now.

Why do we push people away when we crave company so badly? I want to be comforted yet I don't want to be bothered. It is so confusing, frustrating, perplexing and just leaves me feeling so sad.

I am broken. I have nothing to my name, and will probably end up homeless one day. The future feels so bleak, and the present feels painful.

Why was I cursed with bipolar, especially this horrible low? I love to ride the highs, but when I am sinking, it feels like my whole world is falling down.

I am hollow, I have an empty heart, I am depressingly bipolar.

I too am sorry you're feeling this way, but at the same time I also understand. The last few weeks for me have been very similar and it scares the crap out of me because of all the SIs I've been having. I do have a 'plan' but as of yet have not attempted to act on said plan. There are many days when my life just feels so low that I wonder if it's really worth it all.

Hang in there ❤️