[MtnTime2896]

Does anyone else go from happy as hell to, ready to beat someone at the flip of a dime?
It really only switches like that when I'm irrationally provoked but it's a more intense anger than I've felt any other time.

I would rather be happy and angry than depressed; but be careful, when I think about things I have done in my life that I regret--I was feeling angry when I did them. Maybe keep talking to your T or posting about what makes you angry?

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Does anyone else go from happy as hell to, ready to beat someone at the flip of a dime?
It really only switches like that when I'm irrationally provoked but it's a more intense anger than I've felt any other time.

Yes, I do. A lot of it stems from PTSD. My pdoc says that I switch due to PTSD trigger and then back to happy to protect myself from the darkness.

However, what you are experiencing could be something completely different. Have you talked to a T or pdoc about it? Maybe a med change will help.

[MtnTime2896]

Thanks, Myst.
I had a bad day in regards to my family. My family decided to consecutively chew me out, one member after the other like they were running a train (sorry for the crude analogy). It just kept going. Not to mention, this is an anniversary of something that broke me down into nothing, so I'm already angry about that.
I'm just wondering if this is bipolar or I'm just screwed up because not too long after this all ceased, I was flying high as a kite and vise versa beforehand. I don't know if that is normal or if I'm just a basket case.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Wander

Yes, I do. A lot of it stems from PTSD. My pdoc says that I switch due to PTSD trigger and then back to happy to protect myself from the darkness.

However, what you are experiencing could be something completely different. Have you talked to a T or pdoc about it? Maybe a med change will help.

That actually makes a lot of sense, considering I have PTSD. Maybe that's what's behind it. I was heavily triggered at the time but not allowing myself to deal with it.

[MtnTime2896]

I've honestly gone back and forth with meds. I know I shouldn't but I wanted to feel really happy for a while, just for a change of pace. I've been depressed for months and I really want to be happy. The only thing that worries me is the intense anger.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I've honestly gone back and forth with meds. I know I shouldn't but I wanted to feel really happy for a while, just for a change of pace. I've been depressed for months and I really want to be happy. The only thing that worries me is the intense anger.

Anger is a powerful emotions. Is there any healthy way you can vent it?

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Wander

Anger is a powerful emotions. Is there any healthy way you can vent it?

Well, it wasn't healthy but I feel better. My fist is pretty battered and my knuckles are swelled. It was a wall, not anything living.

I have PTSD too and it does seem PTSD triggers go off more wildly when I'm already manic so if I'm triggered while euphorically manic I go from very happy to very angry in zero seconds and it's rarely a good reaction. Anger is a horrible emotion that just feels so bad. (((Hugs))))

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I have PTSD too and it does seem PTSD triggers go off more wildly when I'm already manic so if I'm triggered while euphorically manic I go from very happy to very angry in zero seconds and it's rarely a good reaction. Anger is a horrible emotion that just feels so bad. (((Hugs))))

I'm definitely starting to see the correlation with both disorders and the effects.

I think having the 2 really complicates things. If I focus on music while I'm angry I can vent and even sometimes restore my euphoria.

[xRavenx]

This happens to me when I'm triggered. I don't have PTSD, but I have some trauma in my history and realize it stems from that. It gets hard to cool off afterwards, but I usually take my PRN meds right after that happens, and that helps me get back to my baseline. I also try to do other things to cool down, like listen to music or doing something relaxing.

[Nate7907]

If something is a slight inconvenience to me it really pisses me off when manic.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I'm definitely starting to see the correlation with both disorders and the effects.

Yeh, PTSD and BP feed off each other. It can get really messy. I swing from euphoric mania to a mixed PTSD state. Dangerous combo.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Wander

Yeh, PTSD and BP feed off each other. It can get really messy. I swing from euphoric mania to a mixed PTSD state. Dangerous combo.

Yeah, I'm noticing that. I almost hurt someone yesterday because it was all mixed up; just seconds before that I felt happy as hell. When I'm like this I feel really good but I also feel like a hair trigger at the same time.

[bizi]

Did you infer that you are off meds right now?
Or did I miss that?
What are you taking?
maybe it is time for a med change?
sorry it is so hard right now.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by bizi

Did you infer that you are off meds right now?
Or did I miss that?
What are you taking?
maybe it is time for a med change?
sorry it is so hard right now.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I'm not on meds. Not for the past three days. I'd only taken the meds for two days. I got like this before, during and after taking these meds.