[Wander]

Today my parents met with my T. I am 40 years old but it was felt they and I would benefit from the meeting as they are my main supports. My parents felt it went really well. They benefited from the explanations of Bipolar and PTSD, the horror mix it is and the mixed states I get into at times. My parents said I had told them this all before but having an expert explain it helped immensely. They really liked him too which is great as I think very highly of him. To hear that the bipolar is biological and PTSD more of an injury helped too. They came out of it feeling really positive and listened to and respected.

I saw my T after this meeting and we discussed it briefly as I had so much else to talk about. I was thankful that he could help my parents be better supports, although they are already. It just helped me feel like I wasn't making it up which then made it a bit confronting as I am really unwell right now. The rest of the session was about my obsessions with music and how it can solve my puzzle. My T said I had it backwards as only when i am well will I be able to solve my puzzle. I disagreed and said the puzzle needs to be solved before I can move on to health. He said I had delusions but was not psychotic. He said i was hypomanic but better than last week. Yey, I am making progress. I wanted to discharge but he said I am not safe, which is what my pdoc said. So I am stuck in here. Now I plan on being safe and stable to get out of here.

I'm so glad your doctors could help you receive even better support from your parents.

I understand how you feel about needing to figure out the puzzle NOW. The only warning I have is that when I've thought I solved my puzzles in the past, it didn't make much sense once I was stable. (((Hugs)))

But I do also think I've made profound discoveries while depressed and manic. Not that answered my puzzle but things I needed to know.

Stay safe....we are routing for you.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I'm so glad your doctors could help you receive even better support from your parents.

I understand how you feel about needing to figure out the puzzle NOW. The only warning I have is that when I've thought I solved my puzzles in the past, it didn't make much sense once I was stable. (((Hugs)))

But I do also think I've made profound discoveries while depressed and manic. Not that answered my puzzle but things I needed to know.

Stay safe....we are routing for you.

Thanks. I do NEED to solve my puzzle NOW. But you may be right that in the process I will discover amazing things unrelated. My mind is on fire. Supposed to take Ability, new AP for me, but I don't want my mind blunted. Music is so amazing, orgasmic even. Surely something good will come out of this month in hospital. I was so relieved both my T and pdoc (got to see today) are for me immersing myself in music and see it as at worst a distraction and at best a healing tool.

Originally Posted by Wander

Thanks. I do NEED to solve my puzzle NOW. But you may be right that in the process I will discover amazing things unrelated. My mind is on fire. Supposed to take Ability, new AP for me, but I don't want my mind blunted. Music is so amazing, orgasmic even. Surely something good will come out of this month in hospital. I was so relieved both my T and pdoc (got to see today) are for me immersing myself in music and see it as at worst a distraction and at best a healing tool.

Are you making any progress on your puzzle? Can you talk about your puzzle? Are you able to put it into words?

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

Are you making any progress on your puzzle? Can you talk about your puzzle? Are you able to put it into words?

Think I am making progress but hit a major block. I cannot talk about it as it may trigger others. Sometimes I think I am on the brink of a discovery, others I think I am about to have a breakdown. It is serious work. Sorry I can't be more specific. Maybe PM

[bizi]

I am sorry I disagree with your T.
Delusions are a part of psychosis.
sorry sweetie.
Glad that you are starting on abilify.
Am hoping for better days ahead.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi
I know that you are getting better!

Kind of agree with Bizi. The music puzzle thing sounds like a delusion -- a bit grandiose. Hopefully that will settle down as meds kick in a bit more.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by bizi

I am sorry I disagree with your T.
Delusions are a part of psychosis.
sorry sweetie.
Glad that you are starting on abilify.
Am hoping for better days ahead.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi
I know that you are getting better!

Yeh, probably right about the delusions. He is treating me for it anyway so the diagnosis doesn't matter so much.

[Wild Coyote]

Hi Wander,

I am so happy for you!
What a blessing to have such a great support system!


WC

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hi Wander,

I am so happy for you!
What a blessing to have such a great support system!


WC

Thank you so much WC. I am very lucky to have such great parents, T and pdoc. My parents were not always as supportive but time and experience and openness on their part has made it work.

Years ago my parents didn't get MI at all and hassled me for not being as successful and productive as I should have been. They didn't get it, and neither did I. 20 years later and things have finally fallen into place. It is a blessing to have such a support system. I am so thankful.