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For the last month I have been in a private hospital. Many times they have threatened to put me in a closed ward (Public not Private Hospital) but last night I came as close as I have ever been. Annoying thing is that I am fairly fine during the day but at night, round 6pm onwards, I get agitated, dissociated, severe SI, racing thoughts, PTSD flashbacks, disorganised thinking and other things.
So far I have managed to convince them I am safe enough to stay in the private hospital but last night they almost called my doctor to have me transferred. I am scared of the Public hopistal. I asked them to hit me with drugs so I could sleep it off and they did that. This morning I feel ok but not as good as I have been most days lately so I am worried I will fall into a BIG hole this evening. I am scared of being locked up as I have PTSD and cannot stand being trapped but i guess if I am unsafe the best option is the locked ward. This episode has been hell. One month in and I am very unwell. This only adds to my despair. On the plus side I have discovered Spotify and been listening to music constantly.
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I wish you a speedy recovery. |
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As you wrote to someone else "it can come on fast". ((((Hugs)))). I am so sorry Wander. I wish I could fix this but I know it just takes time. I hope hey hit you as hard as needed with the extra drugs you needed and I hope you see brighter days soon. (((Hugs)))
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I'm sorry you're going through this but I'm happy you can still communicate with the world via PC.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg ![]() Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Last edited by Moose72; Dec 03, 2016 at 09:13 PM. |
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Thanks, if I get into the locked ward I will have no internet or mobile phone privileges. So, if I go silent, that is why.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD ![]() "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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Thanks. I hope you feel better soon too. Stay safe.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD ![]() "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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That's the plan for tonight, drug me into oblivion before I can harm myself. It is 9.30am and I am already feeling weird, so this could be a tough day.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD ![]() "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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I hope you feel better soon.
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Oh boy.
I wish some combination of meds and therapy will benefit you soon. I know you've suffered so much. I hope you keep your internet.
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