The thing is, I have a mild depression. We're talking maybe a 2 out of 10. It's an apathetic depression, too. Yet, I see me trying to kill myself. (I won't describe it here because I think it'd be far too triggering.)

Maybe I'm getting these visions out of boredom? No idea

Does anyone else get these visions?

[duckrabbit]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I get that too, especially when I'm feeling low (though sometimes it happens out of nowhere). For me, it's like I just imagine any and every way to kill myself based on the things around me. Those thoughts seem to function intrusively, and usually don't have an emotional reaction attached. Though when I'm feeling depressed and have those intrusive thoughts, they can be emotionally disturbing. I cope with it by treating it like an ocd thought--simply acknowledging that it's there and then letting it go (sometimes you can spend the whole day in the cycle when the thoughts are constant). I hope you feel better soon.

[emgreen]

Somewhat like you two, I'll sometimes be going about my daily business when, out of nowhere I'll have a suicidal thought that passes through my head. Sometimes these accompany what bluebicycle calls "apathetic depression," but other times I can be in a normal mood & I seem to have an existential moment when I picture myself commiting suicide...with a plan & everything. I haven't attempted suicide in many, many years, & know my recent thoughts are just thoughts that pass like clouds in the sky & don't really disturb me too much. Strange.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Although I'm experiencing low grade depression it hasn't made me think or have Visions
My dreams at night are very vivid though.

[Shazerac]

Not a day goes by that these thoughts don't flit through my head. I try to view it as a temporary thing, like the desire to kill some jerk that cuts me off in traffic. If the thoughts start to get frequent and intrusive I view it as a symptom that I'm getting depressed or agitated and I call my doctor.