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One of the things I have struggled with is the idea I have BP. I know I have anxiety and depression issues (and readily acknowledge them) but I don't recognize (or perhaps refuse to see) the mania part of my behavior. For me, the mania always seem to be just a natural response to getting out of my depressive funk. My wife and others, however, see it as BP. I've not done anything too destructive, so I guess my question is as follows: at what point has the pendulum swung too far from depression to elation?
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I think that really depends. Diagnosis is subjective, at best. The deal is that your life--job, school, family, whatever--should be kept running smoothly If things get out of hand and there have been incidents or close calls, you might want to consider some kind of treatment.
Speaking as a "patient," I'd be very careful about getting into treatment and very selective about what, if any, psych drugs you choose to take. Having said that, its always better to do things on an outpatient basis than deal with everything that goes with hospitalization. |
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It's possible that your diagnosis will change. Mine has three times.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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The good thing about law is that it's about convincing people, not necessarily being right. BP is a natural fit.
The pendulum has swung too far when you need too much time to recover or you are too manic to be convincing (you're seen as crazy and wrong, not charismatic and right).
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Actually, practicing law is probably the worst thing for me in terms of a career choice and my mental state. Alas, it is what it is and there's no escaping it at this point in my career/life.
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I would describe it like a rubber band. Before I developed bipolar I, I would have mostly depression with very short bouts of feeling elated and it was like a burst- then it seemed to be elusive. But it was like a rubber band where I would just immediately snap back to being in a depressed state.
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Bipolar Type I | 40 mg of Latuda, 0.5 mg of Xanax | Diagnosed August 27 2013 |
#7
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I'm also in the wrong field in many ways. Not so much the creative aspect (I'm a work-at-home craftsman/bladesmith) .. but the output. I need somebody to keep an eye on me. I'm the last person who should be working for themselves. |
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