Does anyone get this fear when hypo?

I feel I mainly have just one fear in my life: That I won't have time to do all the things I want to do and be all the persons I want to be.

I am not kidding. This fear is almost killing me. Thing is, I am definitely taking too many things on. I want so much in my life.

On the one hand I am rather the hippie kind of person. I love to have free time and I want to be intense with my hobbies. Plans for this year: Do kickboxing twice a week, tango once, write a new book, produce a short film, read more.

Second, I know way too many people. I meet them and then I can't decide what to do, because I like them, but I like so many people.

Third, on the other hand, I am really ambitious. I am gonna do my final law exams this year and then I want to apply for ambassadors school, so I already bought books to prepare for that. And then I wanted to apply for art school as well. And all those hobbies. And all those friends. And the diet plans. And the journeys.

I know it sounds like crying on a very high level. Thing is I feel all of this is necessary for me to feel good and I feel like a failure if I don't manage all of this once at a time and I don't know how to stop myself from feeling this and do you think I might be hypo? I am FREAKING out!Does anyone else get this fear?

No answers to your questions, but I found your edit to be hilarious. Kockboxing could definitely be misunderstood!

Hahahaha ��

I'm voting hypo. And haha kockboxing

I think with MI we all have a fear of not being the person we want to be
or the person we feel we are on the inside.
I think I feel that fear when hypo as well as depression.

It's great to want more and to be ambitious! That bad thing about hypo maybe is not actually finishing the tasks...for me it is...I start things and never finish them...

It's completely normal to feel what you described; I've had it too. When you reach a place where life feels good, it's natural to want to experience as much of the wonder it has to offer and then lament how little time there may be to actually accomplish all that. And then I'd look back at the times I felt depressed and think "what the heck was I thinking? I should have started working on X or finally gone out and done that?" It's almost as though the up version of had little empathy for the depressed version cause when feeling up or normal there's a clarity that shows why the depressed state of mind was so... wrong. :-)

It's helpful to diligently finish tasks we start even though towards the middle or end of the journey they may lose the luster that compelled us to want to perform them in the first place. The reason this is important to me is because it affirms that when I get ideas to do something new, I do actually have the perseverance to get them done. That makes new prospects seem exciting again rather than pointless.