[MissCathryn]

So, Ive been depressed for like 2-3 weeks. Had a mixed episode or 2 too. Christmas is really really hard for me every year, so I fully expected that. Went to my doc yesterday, and she started me back on Zoloft for my depression and to stop obsessive thoughts (not SI, or anything bad. just racing thoughts)

So, today I woke up the same as usual, go the kids to school, etc. Came home, took a nap as usual.

Firstly, I am a bit of a hypochondriac, and I FREAK out with any test, scan, whatever I have to take. There is no history of ANY cancer in my family, I am perfectly healthy, etc, yet EVERY year, I convince myself that my mamm will come back bad and I will have something very serious. Silly, I know but its just how I am.

When I woke from my nap, my first thought was "I have a mammogram appt tomorrow" My mind went immediately to "Eh, who cares. Whatever."

VERY odd. Now this entire afternoon, instead of all the tremendous pressure, immense guilt, bad self image, etc., etc., It is GONE.

Even right now, I am cool, calm, rational, and collected. That SELDOM (if ever) describes me unless it involves my kids. I am somehow able to keep all my crazy from affecting my boys as much as possible.

I am not hypo, I have normal motivation, etc. I am STILL not panicking about the mamm even though if I think about the appt, my mind immediately goes to (I'm gonna die!) but it is instantaneously replaced by "whatever. it's all good"

Am I over analyzing? Is this what normal is? Has this happened to anyone else? I am not freaking or obsessing about this...I am just like "whatever" like with everything else!!! LOL!!!!!

What in the hell is going on???????

[MissCathryn]

I am going to try really, really hard to just ENJOY THIS!!!!!
It is like a relaxing vacation from my crazy, overwhelmed mind.

Just curious if this has happened to anyone else. I am still learning the ins and outs of this exciting world of Bipolar II.

Thank you to anyone that has any insight!!!!!

[Sesiley]

Yes...it is weird and you think it will last forever until you get back into the old mindset

[MissCathryn]

That is what I was afraid of. I did just wean off of LExapro which I don't think was doing anything anyway, and maybe thats part of it too. Who knows

[JustJace2u]

Not sure I have any advice, but I know how stressful those darn mammograms can be.

[Theresa1991]

Happened to me. I have been hypochondric for years. And then it just turned to - who cares. I have had a break from my fears for one and a half years. Now they only return when I am really stressed out, like at the moment. But usually I can place those fears to "ah okay you're stressed, maybe take some pressure out" and they're gone. Have been wondering if it was due to being hypo as well, because when depressed I get more anxious again. But maybe it is just part of a successful learning process.