[bpfighter250]

When I'm around other people I can't help but notice I am the odd one out. I feel unable to take pleasure in the simple things in life. I have been depressed since the new year, though had a two day reprieve somehow, as if by an act of God, to tackle a job interview. But I feel like I have a low-grade depression, don't really feel like being around people and my appetite sucks. Trying to find meaning in this, but just wish I had my old person back that was sharp and excited about life. Now I just feel like a mediocre version of myself. Is this what it feels like to be depressed long-term.

Bipolar is getting the best of me. I wish I wasn't bipolar. I am starting wellbutrin so i have to have some faith that it will help me.

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Bipolar 1; mania with psychotic features
Lamotrigine 200mg
Quetiapine 100mg
Saphris 10mg
Ativan 2mg

[JustJace2u]

I can understand how you feel. BP is a beast and I hate it.

[Sesiley]

Is there a pattern in your thoughts that end up making you depressed?

Just comparing to me..

[bpfighter250]

I am a medical student and very high achieving. So my depression leads to thoughts that I won't be able to realize my full potential and that I won't become an amazing doctor. I think my depression may be related to not having a regular routine at the moment. I am on somewhat of a break and my sleep and wake times are very erratic. I have been trying to keep up my exercise too but in the past couple of days it hasn't been possible. I don't think my thoughts necessarily make me depressed, I think it is more biological.