[lockedneckmonster]

i had a mtbi a few years ago and have had continuing issues related to mood. i never quite feel the euphoric feeling many people experience with bipolar but everything else that bipolar exhibits. I knowingly and often feel "paranoid" although I feel I am not on the one hand but but feel others think I am. I go from low moods to outright anger homicidal thought mostly directed toward specific individuals. I dont believe I would ever follow through as I then come back from those thought to a more normal base.
I also have suicidal thought as well but they are not present during the rage episodes. They sometimes follow a day later or hours later and I get disgusted with my life, how i feel about myself etc... I am on medicine that is to treat tle but dont believe I have had a seizure like most people are familiar with although I am learning that the high\anger\irritability episodes could be a form of seizure. I experience strange sensations of deja vu and i never feel completely a sleep at night meaning I feel my brain is always on and not thinking about anything in particular but rather like its processing or trying to all of the past conversations\sound bytes\music etc that were heard during the day or in the past. I also have strong feelings of nostalgia and often have strong connections to the years that I would have been a small child even though I fee as an adult during those times.

I don't know what TBI mood issues are but I sure relate to several of the symptoms you mentioned at times. I'm sorry you are suffering with this and hope you find something helpful. (((hugs)))

[Wanderlust90]

Can I ask what part of your brain was injured? I only started experiencing dyshporic hypomania & depression after a simple partial seizure (& later a complex partial) & they found a lesion in my left temporal lobe, maybe caused by a clot. I believe I have experienced euphoric hypomania prior to this though, but because I never entered full blown mania i was able to function at a high level & I had no insight into this at the time, only in hindsight can I identify it. I can identify with the low moods to homicidal rage part.

[lockedneckmonster]

Originally Posted by Wanderlust90

Can I ask what part of your brain was injured? I only started experiencing dyshporic hypomania & depression after a simple partial seizure (& later a complex partial) & they found a lesion in my left temporal lobe, maybe caused by a clot. I believe I have experienced euphoric hypomania prior to this though, but because I never entered full blown mania i was able to function at a high level & I had no insight into this at the time, only in hindsight can I identify it. I can identify with the low moods to homicidal rage part.

rt tempral lobe