I need a hug

I really need a hug i feel horrible i have been crying all morning and it is so hard to move everything is so much effort i am trying so hard because i am supposed to start DBT tomorrow and i have a T appointment but i am finding it hard to make it even 5mins without seriously having to stop myself from trying something. it took me 4 hours to get out of bed this morning and i am supposed to be somewhere today but i dont know if i can stop crying long enough to actually go. Everything hurts so deeply. i feel hopeless.

I am so sorry that you are hurting so much.
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

Flutterby,

I really hope you find relief soon I personally found DBT techniques (with time) have been helpful and hope that you will too. (((hugs))) Post whenever you feel the need. You have support here.

Can you call your Pdoc first thing when they open?

i dont have my pdocs number and my mental health worker isnt working today. i have an appointment but that is in 2 and a half weeks

Sending big hugs, sorry your struggling so much right now. I know it's hard!

i need to start getting ready but i dont have the motivation why is everything so hard even simple things are difficult.

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ugh it is getting worse i didnt think it could but it just did i dont think i am going to get to go to the thing i am supposed to attend i am so tired and still crying and i just want to curl up into a ball and cry forever. i dont know if i can take this anymore.

((((Flutterby11))))

You can do it, even though you don't want to. Getting help from DBT will help. I took it twice.

simple things are difficult because you are depressed with very low motivation. Also, because of your severe depression, simple things appear cognitively difficult, so if you break them down into components, you might actually accomplish something. How about brushing your teeth as a step towards getting out of the house?

I had Risperdal-caused depression last year and could not buy a cell phone for many months because it seemed too difficult to me.

i dont think i have time to get there now i ruin everything. i will still try and brush my teeth ugh i dont know what to do i am trying so so hard i just need to stay alive for one more day just one. that is just proving very difficult.

If you feel that way I'm once again going to repeat: Hospital. I'm not just saying that; I've been there and the hospital helped immensely. Every time I've gone in fact (5 times). when you can't function at all you need help beyond what the internet can provide.

i called the other night (for mental health you have to call ahead) and they said not to come in.

what do they do if you just show up?

when do you stat DBT therapy?
bizi

tomorrow if i can make it.

make you wait 9 hours and then send you home

you can make it.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

i hope so

You can do it.

i missed my thing i couldnt stop crying my eyes are sore.

I am sorry what did you miss?
bizi

I did CBT and it really helped. DBT has a lot of the same principles. I hope it helps turn things around! Hugs