[zijax]

Up, hyper, hyper-sensitive, insecure, feel unloved by boyfriend and he's done nothing wrong. T

Then start crying. Feel like the devil is getting a hold on me.

Want to explode into pieces and put myself together again and be alright

I just can't seem to have an ordinary effing stable emotional non neurotic day-why this bp, meds help only 50pct. I mean do they even help at all I wonder.

Thoughts on top of thoughts on top of songs, poems, anxious, never know what is wrong but it is a battered life, I feel all alone, I need to cry for no reason like a storm

[shaggy dog]

It sounds so awful. I hope you can find some peace and relief from the ordeal you are going thru right now.

[Anrea]

Zijax, do you know about Borderline Personality Disorder? It is very close to bipolar in symptoms. BPD does not mean a person has to cut - that is an old falacy.

I am diagnosed with both. Read about it if you would please.

Best of luck to us all. <3

[zijax]

I'm dxed with both too-good call Anrea. Thanks Shaggy, feeling much better now. I always ignore the bpd but I'm in a new relationship and getting triggered, also a med change and rapid cycling. Now I'm on top of the world-life is amazing; hypo and the bf is awesome!

[Anrea]

Zijax,

I was diagnosed with bp in my teens, and had bpd added in my late 40's. Knowing I had both would have helped. I have spent the last 5+ years learning which is which.

It actually helps, and explains things.

Learning which is which is confusing. I go by this basic understanding: BP is not triggered, BPD is.

Have a great week!

Best of luck to us all.