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Old Feb 26, 2017, 01:55 AM
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I had a revelation today. I am meant to heal people. I am meant to advocate for those who can't advocate for themselves.

All the signs are there. People are drawn to my happy, open minded matter. I see patterns in things I've not noticed before.

Bad things are happening in the world. But I'm going to make a difference. Watch me.
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Old Feb 26, 2017, 06:29 AM
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I am one with the universe. Colours are sharper. I feel like I just know what to do. Does that make sense to anyone? Hm.
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Old Feb 26, 2017, 07:36 AM
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I had a revelation today. I am meant to heal people...to advocate for those who can't advocate for themselves.

... I see patterns in things I've not noticed before.

Bad things are happening in the world. But I'm going to make a difference. Watch me.
I hear you and I also caution you. It is a fact that we are to be "healers" in the sense of doing whatever we can that is actually helpful to others, and I definitely have your same awareness of need "to advocate for those who can't advocate for themselves." But that "Watch me" part will have to go. Trusted servants who will ultimately hear "Well done" never do what they do for themselves.
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Old Feb 26, 2017, 07:37 AM
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I hear you and I also caution you. It is a fact that we are to be "healers" in the sense of doing whatever we can that is actually helpful to others, and I definitely have your same awareness of need "to advocate for those who can't advocate for themselves." But that "Watch me" part will have to go. Trusted servants who will ultimately hear "Well done" never do what they do for themselves.
What do you mean by this?
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Old Feb 26, 2017, 10:36 AM
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remember giving of yourself is also emptying yourself ... so take the time to refill yourself ... to be giving long term you must never let yourself become "too" empty ... it seems paradoxal but to be the best for others we must be the best for yourself first ...

a very worthy goal ... the world needs givers ... just remember ... never forget to give to yourself also ... Tigger.
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Old Feb 27, 2017, 08:29 AM
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What do you mean by this?
I mean being a healer and making a difference does not include "Watch me." I certainly do not discourage the idea of "meant to heal...to advocate...to make a difference", and I have some of my own experience as that kind of vessel. However, be cautious about expecting personal recognition. As I had been told many years ago, we do not get blue ribbons for doing what we should have been doing all along.
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For me, revelations like that are a precursor to psychosis, or a symptom of it. I used to see the interconnection between every experience and observation in my life, and it was definitely a symptom of mania and/or psychosis. Good luck on your quest, whatever form it takes.
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Old Feb 27, 2017, 02:30 PM
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This sounds very similar to my last bigger manic episode when I basically changed completely the focus of my work (I'm an artists/craftsman) because of the connections I was seeing between various loosely related fields. I went severely depressed .. and maybe mixed.. afterwards when the repercussions of what I'd done hit me. So.. be careful maybe??
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I see the meaning of my life or the ties that bind it all as one when manic. Your post reminds me of this.
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Old Feb 28, 2017, 01:01 AM
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What you are saying makes perfect sense to me as I have felt that way before when in a severe manic episode. The universe was magnificent and all my senses were alive making smells, sounds, colours and other visual aspects so vivid and intense. It was AMAZING. I also thought I could heal people by thought and went about trying to do that every day. When I came down I saw that my perceived powers were false, nothing had come of all my efforts and energy to heal or move objects (another power I thought I had). Luckily I was in hospital so the impact on me was buffered but I did embarrass myself with some family and friends, and the medical staff of course.

I guess I am saying be careful. You could harm yourself or your reputation, or even livelihood. Is there a therapist or psychiatrist you trust that you can talk to about this? Keep posting and let us know how you are going.
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When I start to feel as though I'm in the right place at the right time and I've been sent by God for that express purpose, that's when I'm in full-blown mania. Not saying that you are, but it sure sounds like you're on the cusp of it. Please let your pdoc know what's going on with you and keep posting here to let us know how you're doing. ((((HUGS))))
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For me, revelations like that are a precursor to psychosis, or a symptom of it...
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When I start to feel as though I'm in the right place at the right time and I've been sent by God for that express purpose, that's when I'm in full-blown mania...
Having revelations of one kind or another and/or having awareness beyond the natural does not automatically (although it still certainly can) prove (or at least lead to) mania and/or psychosis. However, things such as "Watch me!" are almost always (and at the very least) indicators of need for great caution. So then, at least some certain types of manic and/or psychotic episodes are manifestations or indications more of "Watch me!" than of revelation or awareness.

Few people will understand that, of course, hence many might call me manic or psychotic even at this moment. However, that would be indication of their lack of knowledge and awareness...and I would gladly try to explain to anyone truly willing to listen for reasons other than presuming to diagnose me.
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