when is hospital the right choice?

franz kafka · Mar 01, 2017, 07:52 PM

I'm being stalked by a supernatural entity that wants me to kill myself. I sense its presence all day long and it's putting suicidal/self-harm thoughts into my head. The more it happens, the harder it is to resist the thoughts.

Historically giving my meds to a family member for safe-keeping hasn't stopped me from hurting myself. Hospital helps... the entity eventually gives up when it knows I am safe and can't hurt myself. But I don't think things are bad enough yet for hospital.

Am I downplaying how bad things are right now? I'm really scared about this whole situation. The entity scares me; the thoughts it makes me think are scary. I'm not sure what to do.

BeyondtheRainbow · Mar 01, 2017, 08:08 PM

I think when it is really scary to be out of the hospital that is a good sign that it is time to be in it. I always feel so much safer once I get there and am not over-thinking it anymore.

Mar 01, 2017, 08:19 PM

Well I would suggest you immediately go to a hospital. That's just my opinion.

A hospital is perhaps the best place when you are a danger to yourself and when you aren't functioning very well out in the community. My only experience is with bipolar. I've been hospitalized for both depression and mania. I wasn't delusional however I was a danger to myself in both situations.

Wander · Mar 01, 2017, 09:40 PM

The fact that these entities are telling you to harm yourself is of great concern. I think hospital is the best place for you right now and hopefully they can make the entity go away. When I'm in desperate need of hospital I tend to underplay things and it takes a lot of coersion to get me in there. Once I am well again I can see how urgent my need for hospital was. Can you call your pdoc and tell them you are in danger and explain all you have told us? If not, maybe go to ER and explain this and stress you are in danger. Hang in there. Don't harm yourself. We all care about you.

franz kafka · Mar 01, 2017, 09:56 PM

I'm going to try to hold out until a tdoc appointment on Friday. Give a med tweak a bit of a chance to do something. But I am worried... the entity wants me to start carrying my meds around with me, so I can take them whenever.

Victoria'smom · Mar 01, 2017, 09:58 PM

Give your meds to a safe person.

BeyondtheRainbow · Mar 01, 2017, 10:00 PM

Can you lock your meds up, just leaving out enough for Friday? I had to keep mine locked for a couple of years until I proved I could follow my safety plan adequately and while the majority of them were locked up so I could only open the box with a key my therapist held the weekly pill box was kept in a tool box with a combination lock so that I had to think a little and be calm enough to enter the code if I wanted in that box. It at least kept me from being totally impulsive. Could you do something similar to keep away from the meds?

I think going IP would be safer but understand wanting to wait 2 days if you think you can be sure you won't listen to the entity. Personally I wouldn't take that risk but that's me.

Sad Mermaid · Mar 01, 2017, 10:22 PM

My last hospitalization was so helpful that I stopped being psychotic and suicidal just from the feeling of safety, without med changes. I have since been on the mend. I was hospitalized in early Dec and my life has improved due to that hospitalization. I highly recommend that you go to ER and tell them what you have told us on here.

bizi · Mar 02, 2017, 12:16 AM

yes I would go to the hospital.
bizi

still_crazy · Mar 02, 2017, 08:07 AM

I think it depends. I'm biased, because I was treated like doo doo butter in 2 different hospitals (I've only been hospitalized twice, lol), so..yeah.

How was your experience during hospitalization? Lots of people respond well to quality hospitals and get what they need out of the experience. Some people...don't have such great experiences (points to self).

I'm not you, I'm not your doctor or anything, I'm just trying to be as honest as I can in replying. Mental hospitals are still a mixed bag, but they're better than death or untreated psychosis. Some even have very good programs that actually help a lot of people. Others...not so much.