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I happened upon some old posts that I wrote around Christmas and was sickened by the lack of empathy in my words.
It was like I was fighting against my own mi instead of accepting it-I wasn't owning it. And therefore wouldn't let you own it either. I had relapsed on alcohol, was in a 6 week long depression-which is unusual for me a as a rapid cycler, got in a terrible row with bf, he hit me so hard I rolled 4 feet across the floor, I pulled a loaded gun on him, then he passed out and I felt so ignored I cut my wrist to pieces to 'show him. When he woke up I had called a friend for help and she called him a taxi and took me to ip. Im now 30 days sober. Im on new meds. I need you all in my life. I need a hug right now. I hope I haven't permanently offended anyone on here. I hope you forgive me. I was not well. I'm blaming it on my llness bc that is what happened, and yes I drank bc of my depression, anxiety and med change all at xmas and family stress, that is what happened. But I'm still upset and I wish I could change it. I wasn't myself. Just know...that wasn't me for the last while |
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If you need a hug you got one
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I think I need help 'cause I'm drowning in myself. It's sinking in, I can't pretend that I ain't been through hell. I think I need help---Papa Roach |
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Thanks for understanding and for the hug Raindrop!
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Sending big hugs
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Glad you are feeling better. ![]() ![]() WC |
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(((((zijax)))))
Hope you're doing better and better. |
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We all have bad days, bad weeks, bad times. That's why it's good to have this forum---we get it. Don't worry sweetheart, it happens to the best of us. Welcome back!
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DX: Bipolar 1 Anxiety Tardive dyskinesia Mild cognitive impairment RX: Celexa 20 mg Gabapentin 1200 mg Geodon 40 mg AM, 60 mg PM Klonopin 0.5 mg PRN Lamictal 500 mg Levothyroxine 125 mcg (rx'd for depression) Trazodone 150 mg Zyprexa 7.5 mg Please come visit me @ http://bpnurse.com |
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we hope you get better and better all of the time.
((((HUGS)))) bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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(((hugs))). We are here for you.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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Thank you to everyone for forgiving me here. I'm crying tears of happiness as I read your kind words. It's like some rocky part of me cracked and tears are streaming out and now I'm a big soft mess but I'm so much happier. Love you guys!
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I am so very sorry for all you have went through. I hope you find some peace and stability in your life.
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