[lilypup]

I thought I was fairly stable and doing okay.
Sunday night my husband slipped on some wet tile and fell. He was in a lot of pain but didn't want to go to the ER. He stayed home for a couple of days and was miserable. I played nurse and did fine.

He finally called a doc friend of his who said to go to the ER. So even though I have driving anxiety (especially at night), I got him in the car and took him. I sat patiently and acted normal through the whole thing. Turns out he has four fractured ribs and beginning of pneumonia. They gave him pain meds and all and he is doing better. He can do a lot of things for himself now. But I am still staying close by to help.

Today I just had a crying meltdown. I am worried about my 23 YO who cannot find a job. He smokes pot and I'm afraid everywhere drug tests. He does have a medical card to use but I don't know if places count that as okay or not.

I have three grown kids at home. They have been helpful when asked to do errands, etc. I don't drive much and had to miss my tdoc appt today.

I just feel overwhelmed and unable to cope. My husband should be the center of attention, not my problems. I thought I was doing well, but I am so tired and just lost. I'm also taking Klonopin like crazy, even though I had weaned totally off of it.

I don't know what I expect you guys to say, but thanks for listening.

[lilypup]

Thanks Wild Coyote and wildflower child. I know you guys understand.

Lilly pup, I understand more than you know. I have 2 special needs kids and a disabled husband. I get it and I'm deeply sorry for what you are going through. Thank goodness your hubby is ok and healing. (((Hugs to you all)))

[Sunflower123]

It seems like you did act normal during your husband's crisis. You helped him at home then got him to the hospital although you are anxious about driving at night and now you're caring for him at home. Please give yourself credit and be gentle with yourself. Nothing wrong with a meltdown with what you've been through and are going through. Best wishes. I hope you start feeling better.

[cashart10]

All my love to you! I agree with Jennifer; it sounds like you have been together for the most part. Be kind to yourself. I hope things get easier soon.

[Unrigged64072835]

That sounds like what I would do. Take care of all the stuff and then break down afterwards. I know how it feels. It's okay. Take a break if you can.

[lilypup]

Now I'm really stressed out. I cancelled lunch with a friend tomorrow because my kids will be gone and I don't want to leave my husband alone in case he falls or needs anything. She is acting cool towards me on text. Gee, I can't win today.

[BipolaRNurse]

[bioChE]

For what it's worth, your reactions sound pretty normal.