[x_blessed]

I'm really down and sad right now, I feel so pathetic.!! Last semester I took A&P 201 and mad an A with no problem. I studied and was determined to get those good grades. Since I was on the roll last semester full of energy, and enthusiastic about my goals, i figured I'll go ahead and take A&P 202 this summer semester.! In between that time, maybe 2-3 weeks, the depression hit and went on 2 weeks starting the semester. I had to stop my anti-depressant because they were making me manic, which is how my counselor knew to diagnose me with Bipolar disorder and I was waiting to be seen by a new psych to prescribe the correct medication So yeah, I wasn't as determined, I was confused, and/or scattered brain for the most part. Therefore, I didn't study as much as I knew I should of been. It's now halfway into the semester and I've made failing grades on both test so far.! F's, actually FAILING. I know I could've earned an A this semester too, if I had that determination and energy as last semester. I hate to have to blame my disorder for failing though it does play a huge role in my behavior and moods. So I blame myself , it's all my fault! I knew I should've studied and try to control myself a little harder. Now that I have the correct medications I feel a whole lot better, my determination is back.! And I still have a chance to earn a B in the class and if I'm lucky I can earn a really low A. I'm just very sad and distraught about those failing grades this early in a vey short semester.

Have anyone else had a similar experience where you your mood kept you from succeeding goals, plans, or possible accomplishments?? Or have you blamed yourself?

Any advice and encouragement is helpful too

[Victoria'smom]

I don't think it's your fault. Yes BP kept me from completing school.

[Sunflower123]

If you feel comfortable telling your professer you really need too. Yes, when I was in my first semester of college I had straight A's and then got depressed and just quit without telling anybody. It wasn't pretty. I had to take those classes over again. I went on to get my B.S. and my M.B.A while being treated for my illness. Please talk to you professer. Good luck.

[x_blessed]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

If you feel comfortable telling your professer you really need too. Yes, when I was in my first semester of college I had straight A's and then got depressed and just quit without telling anybody. It wasn't pretty. I had to take those classes over again. I went on to get my B.S. and my M.B.A while being treated for my illness. Please talk to you professer. Good luck.

I want to tell my professor but I don't want to feel like I'm making excuses or like I'm trying to get special treatment because of it.

[Wander]

Last semester I spent six weeks IP. It really effected my grades though I haven't go the final marks yet. It is so hard to study when manic, psychotic or depressed. I was all three at different points. It really gets me down that BP effects my grades so much. I wanted high marks but I guess I will have to accept average this time round. I even wonder if I will be able to work in a career at all with this illness but I intend to try.

By the way, I told my professors and had extra time on my exam which helped. It is worth letting them know as they can give special consideration when it comes to your marks.

[Wild Coyote]

Yes, BP has gotten in the way of my life, in general.

I understand your frustration.

Have you asked for any accommodations at school?


WC

[x_blessed]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Yes, BP has gotten in the way of my life, in general.

I understand your frustration.

Have you asked for any accommodations at school?


WC

This dx is new for me and idk how to go about getting accommodations...

[x_blessed]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I don't think it's your fault. Yes BP kept me from completing school.

Thanks.! And I'm sorry you didn't finish, I almost did not go back myself, and now that I have it's more of a struggle to finish than I though!

[x_blessed]

Originally Posted by Wander

Last semester I spent six weeks IP. It really effected my grades though I haven't go the final marks yet. It is so hard to study when manic, psychotic or depressed. I was all three at different points. It really gets me down that BP effects my grades so much. I wanted high marks but I guess I will have to accept average this time round. I even wonder if I will be able to work in a career at all with this illness but I intend to try.

By the way, I told my professors and had extra time on my exam which helped. It is worth letting them know as they can give special consideration when it comes to your marks.

I can definitely relate. I'm currently fixing my GPA do I need those passing grades. I also worry too about the future with this disorder weather it's holding a career, maintaining a stable life, and even having children.! I don't want to be a negative influence in their lives, especially since I can't control my mood swings.

I'm also really nervous about telling my professor.

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by x_blessed

I want to tell my professor but I don't want to feel like I'm making excuses or like I'm trying to get special treatment because of it.

You're not making excuses, you have a real medical situation you are dealing with. Schools have procedures and policies set up for dealing with medical issues.

[x_blessed]

Thanks bioCHE, I will definitely try to talk with her my next class. It's just that paranoia I guess, thinking that she may think I don't care, or is not studying, or applying myself enough. She's the same professor from last semester, so I know she see a difference, but she haven't asked or acknowledged it much. Just that I'm failing. And I don't expect her to, but thinking this sometimes makes me not want to go to class.

[Unrigged64072835]

Your school should have a disability services office. Go there and talk to a counselor about getting accommodations. You have a chronic illness, and there's no one to blame for that, not even yourself.

I'm finally stable for a while, though some of the side effects are rather annoying. I'm restarting with 2 classes this term. I've been stressed out but it's working out so far. This is the time of year where my depression gets bad so I'm hoping to keep going until classes end in August. I'll see my pdoc then and figure out what to do next.

[x_blessed]

Thanks your response Fharraige, I will definitely check it out! I'm also only doing two classes a semester, don't want to put to much on myself, especially If I'm in between moods and finding the right medications. But next semester I will be forced to take 3 classes, because i don't want to put school off anymore than I need. Hang in there you got this!! I wish you the best of luck on this semester!

[Fuzzybear]