[bizi]

I am a little concerned about my self.
Over the past week, I have hurt myself on a scalding chili dog the roof of my mouth still hurts! I rammed my head into the kitchen cabinet bent my glasses and have a painful area on my left temple area.
Almost ran off the road, I was distracted while driving. I have been being distracted by signs etc. for a while now.
My drinking has increased and so has my internet usage. My picking has been bad also. My rosacea flared up and I could not stop picking at it. I have been picking at my cuticles etc.
I really need to be careful.
Have not been to the gym, my weight is the highest it
has been IN YEARS!!!!!
I stopped practicing my banjo ukulele...it was an impulsive buy.
heavy sigh
I am not happy.
bizi

[Standup2me]

Can you try to make tomorrow a better day?
Just one day
One little day, that's all.
24 hours, you can do it

Sorry to hear that you have been having a rough time.

Have you thought about working out at home using Youtube videos? That's what I do and it works well for me. I especially enjoy FitnessBlender and Leslie Sansone, but there are many options out there. Even just a short workout can make a big difference in mood. Also, this takes away the pressure of having to go out to the gym, and the financial stress of a gym membership.

[xRavenx]

(((Hugs, bizi)))) I hope things look up for you soon.

[Nammu]

((((((( bizi))))))) maybe you could try cutting down on the alcohol?

[Espurr1989]

@scaredandconfused I love FitnessBlender! Well, I haven't used it in about a year, but it was great when I was on the exercise train.

@bizi Take it easy and watch out for yourself. One thing at a time... use your reminders on your phone if you need to. I would also suggest cutting down on alcohol. Slowly over time if its hard to cold turkey. Alcohol has a tendency to make any of us more clumsy than usual. For us bipolar folks, it's even more imperative to protect our senses. <3 I hope it gets better for you! Let us know?

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're having a tough time. I hope things start looking up for you soon.

[bizi]

I only had 3 beers last night so that was good.
I slept great last night slept in...
Going to talk to a friend this morning.
I am restarting abilify today 5mg.
I will be really careful today and try to be present...concentrate on doing my tasks safely and efficiently. I also noticed that I was being really picky with my clients feet. Looking for perfection....
anyway.
thanks for your support.
bizi

[hopeless2015]

Hugs bizi, glad you got a good night's sleep

[liveforsummer]

Hugs bizi could you go for a walk some time today?

[Victoria'smom]

hope today is better.

[bizi]

I hope I sleep tonight. picked a bit on my face and fingers...nothing too bad.
Thanks for all of your thoughts and concern.
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[Wander]

Thinking of you Bizi. Hope things continue to turn around. x

[HALLIEBETH87]

Mindfulness could help

[bizi]

hubby listened to the Power of Now....
he said it was great!
I need to listen!
bizi
The roof of my mouth still hurts and has an ulcerated area from the burn.
sigh

[Unrigged64072835]

(((((Bizi)))))

I'm rereading the book. I forgot a lot about it.

Maybe you should see a doc about your mouth.

[bizi]

My mouth is just a little indentation left. so that is good.

Some one posted about abilify being helpful with attention difficulties.
need to google that!
bizi
who is still picking at my face....bizi

There's a trick with bubble-wrap you might like to try. You cut bubble-wrap into squares and pin one to your shirt, when you're home. Then when you feel tempted to pick at your skin, you burst a bubble instead. Really focus on the sensation of the plastic bubble bursting beneath your fingertips. Just an idea.

[bizi]

thanks jane ((((HUGS)))))
now I am picking my hang nails....
sigh
bizi

[bizi]

I need to get off this computer!!!!!!!
I have been on here for hours. I should have done billing it is way behind.
I keep going from one forum to face book to e-mail to forum etc....it is driving me crazy!!!!!!
I need to get ready to go to bed, hubby is already there.
I have been picking again...both my face and fingers.
I can't take antidepressants because they make me manic.
I got unstable taking trazadone....
I need to go to bed.
sigh
bizi

[bizi]

hi grandslam,
I could not send you a private message.

I finally put moisturizer on my fingers/cuticles and they look much better...only three of them have wounds.
I am done with this computer and am heading to bed....
bizi

[RainyDay107]

Bizi, I don't think I have anyone blocked. I'm not sure how to check that? Maybe send me a friend request if you want to? I'm here to support you.

You have a lot on your plate. Too much. I think cutting back on the alcohol is important. If you can not make it a daily habit...I think it will help a lot. I don't know if that is your situation...I'm just speaking from my own experience. I self-medicated with alcohol in the past.

[bizi]

I drink 3-4 beers every night which is not too much.
The real trouble it causes me is weight gain.
sigh
bizi
granslam,This is what it says when I try to send you a private message:

glamslam has chosen not to receive private messages or may not be allowed to receive private messages. Therefore you may not send your message to him/her.

If you are trying to send this message to multiple recipients, remove glamslam from the recipient list and send the message again.

you don't even have a visitors page to write on...

[bizi]

The cuticle cream is good for my fingers.....if I would just use it.
I believe we are going to a play tomorrow night downtown.
Maybe we will go with some friends.
Still picking at my face and fingers but not as bad.
Went to whole foods for trivia and dinner. Had 2 grain burgers with pepper jack cheese and balsalmic vinegrette and a side of salad with ceaser dressing.
very good and filling.
I have the weekend off. (I worked 12 days in a row)
Yippie!
bizi

[VerMOZZica]

I'm sorry you aren't feeling well right now bizi. I really hope you get better soon. I used to self injure so I can understand the picking thing. I know it's not easy to stop. I really hope things start to look up for you.