[Goals2017]

What keeps you guys going through the pain? What gives you a reason to keep fighting and maybe one day overcome the struggles that comes with BP?

[wildflowerchild25]

I'm sure this will be a common answer but my son. I want him to have a better life than I did. He already lost his father just like me. He needs his mother. Mine withdrew into herself and left me alone. I won't do that to him.

[VerMOZZica]

My family keep me going that includes my pets. I never would want to do anything that would hurt them.

[Kuras]

I was an emotionally scarred drug addict with no hope for my life. I didn't even believe I would make it to 30. I had nothing to show for myself. But when I got clean and started receiving proper treatment, I began seeing glimpses of what my life could be. I had real hope for the first time in my life. And I saw that I wasn't a lost cause anymore. Once I gained enough confidence, I realized that my life means something and that I deserve my goals. I started college and continued in my recovery. I continue to set goals for myself and now know that I can reach them. Life can be very hard and I know there may always be struggles with my mental illness. But I have a life to live today and it's one worth living. I know that I can achieve even more, psychiatric issues be damned. I refuse to doubt myself anymore. I'm worth something and hopefully you realize that you are as well.

Originally Posted by Goals2017

What keeps you guys going through the pain? What gives you a reason to keep fighting and maybe one day overcome the struggles that comes with BP?

Possible trigger:

I think for me it's mostly about fear.

I've had so many attempts on my life, done so much damage to my body, that I know that if I keep it up, i'll be living the rest of my life in severe physical pain (and I have enough going on mentally). I need to do it right if i'm going to do it again

but also, not only that

also this question.. well if I give up now, how are things ever going to get better?

you need to be alive, and as long as you're alive, their's a chance things can change.

if you're not alive, you don't have that chance (well obviously)

it's hard though

I guess for reasons, the only 1 I really have is my lame goal of wanting to hear every song in the world before my life ends, (which is just not going to happen)

I don't have friends and family, so that one's out

[Sunflower123]

My daughter. I also don't want to quit on myself when my answer might be right around the corner. Best wishes.

[BipolaRNurse]

My family. Before he passed, my husband made me promise that I'd stay alive for them, and so far I've been as good as my word. My son in law told me the other day that they wouldn't be able to stand to lose me too. So I'll keep on keeping on, God help me, and make him proud.

[Gabyunbound]

At different points in my life, I'd tell you different things.

But at this point in my life, I'd say family, especially my nephews. I just moved across country just to be closer to family.

Oh and my kitty. She won't be with me for much longer, but I'll do anything to keep her comfortable and snuggled while she's still going relatively strong. When I get a new kitty (and this is very painful to think of right now) she will also play a large role in my life. That's just the way I am. I think they get attached too and know full well who their mama is.

And Shattered Sanity said it: as long as you're alive, there's always the possibility of change -positive change.

[Icare dixit]

Chance of recovery.

[Shadow wings]

My mum. She means everything to me. I think without her love and support I would have given up years ago

[HarryKovert]

Apart from loved ones it's the knowledge that it will get better and I've no reason to believe it wont stay better

[Unrigged64072835]

My family, mainly my husband and daughter.

My daughter has depression and anxiety as well, so still being a role model for her is important.

[raspberrytorte]

My husband for sure. I couldn't do that to him. He loves me so much. He told me that if I committed suicide he'd always wonder what more he could have done for me. I know he'd be devastated.

It hasn't stopped me from a couple of attempts, but during those attempts I was either psychotic or severely depressed and not in my right mind.

[JanusunaJ]

Possibly the fear of missing out.

[Slightlydelusional]

Im so depressed and alone in this world that I really have nothing keep me going, but I do have a large personal debt with a very good friend that I have to pay off and that will take a year or two so I got something I guess.

Originally Posted by QuixoticDeLaEternal

Possibly the fear of missing out.

My fear of missing out is actually my greatest fear. I hate being excluded and at this point of my life this is the most Ive been on the outside of everything and it really crushes me.

[porcelainboy]

My girlfriend, my mom and my cats. I made a promise to my girlfriend and I saw how wrecked my mom was after my sister's attempt, I don't want to do that to either of them. And I don't want to leave my cats alone either.

[JanusunaJ]

Originally Posted by Slightlydelusional

My fear of missing out is actually my greatest fear. I hate being excluded and at this point of my life this is the most Ive been on the outside of everything and it really crushes me.

I can definitely relate with you. This moment of my life is the most I've been on the outside of everything too. It's like I'm an inhabitant of a desolate world. On the rare occasion, bumping into another person for them to only perceive a gossamer aspect of myself.

It sucks. Totally not who I was a couple of years ago.

On another note: I sometimes think of the Dylan Thomas poem "Do not go gentle into that good night" to give me fuel to push through. But, sometimes I just want to scream when I think of the line "Rage, rage against the dying of the light" because I feel like there's no fight left in me and I truly want to give up; there's a deafening ambivalence between quitting and pushing through.

[bioChE]

My family keeps me going. I have a wonderful wife and four wonderful kids to support and take care of. If I'm not well, they suffer. I have to be OK for them.

[Slightlydelusional]

Originally Posted by QuixoticDeLaEternal

I can definitely relate with you. This moment of my life is the most I've been on the outside of everything too. It's like I'm an inhabitant of a desolate world. On the rare occasion, bumping into another person for them to only perceive a gossamer aspect of myself.

It sucks. Totally not who I was a couple of years ago.

On another note: I sometimes think of the Dylan Thomas poem "Do not go gentle into that good night" to give me fuel to push through. But, sometimes I just want to scream when I think of the line "Rage, rage against the dying of the light" because I feel like there's no fight left in me and I truly want to give up; there's a deafening ambivalence between quitting and pushing through.

Yes, being an inhabitant of a desolate world for sure. Im also not who I was a few years ago and most of my life, but than again I was always hurting and guess this is the time to fix some things that have always been broke and hope a better me emerge.

[CF17]

God. My faith.
That recurring daily thought of hope amidst all the pain and despair.
I have a favorite word that gives me so much motivation and energy whenever I hear it or say: perseverance.

[Werewoman]

My husband. He has stuck with me through all of my craziness and still loves me in spite of it all. Maybe he's the crazy one?

[KristenRenee]

Originally Posted by Goals2017

What keeps you guys going through the pain? What gives you a reason to keep fighting and maybe one day overcome the struggles that comes with BP?

What helps me is spending quality time with my 9 year old granddaughter. She is the light of my life. I always tell her she is my reason for living. She is what keeps me going.