[liveforsummer]

Left Saturday for vacation and first 2 days I just wanted to fly right back home (even though I felt I really wanted a getaway and picked the destination myself). The third day felt more comfortable and even happy to be there. Now we just arrived at a second destination this afternoon and I just want to hop on a plane and go home again. I just feel like I don't want to be here and want home. I'm sure I'll adjust. Does anyone else have a hard time when going away?
--just reading this after posting and I think I sound so ungrateful when I should be very grateful to be able to go away.

[Woolly Bugger]

I feel your pain. Vacations cause me more anxiety than they are worth. Disneyworld was a traumatic experience for me, although my wife and children loved it. Drink plenty of adult beverages and try to relax. It will be over before you know it. Best of luck to you.

[MobiusPsyche]

I try to keep to my regular routine as much as possible even when I'm on vacation and that seems to help.

[Daonnachd]

Holidays are horrendous for me.

I may've already shared this, so forgive me if so. My brother-in-law works for Google and earns more than he knows what to do with, so my sister-in-law is taking the entire family to Hawaii for a week. I will be stuck living in the same house with all my in-laws when I know they don't understand what I go through. I certainly hope things go smoothly... for me, but for you, too, Liveforsummer.

[bizi]

Last march I had a melt down with my parents and siblings but hubby was not there.
It was so embarrassing.
bizi

[liveforsummer]

Thanks for the advice and support. Feeling anxious this morning. Took immovane last night to sleep as couldn't deal with thoughts. Still wanna go home but impossible. Good luck in Hawaii vertigo.
7days to go

[Sunflower123]

I really understand exactly how you feel. I'm very grateful that I go to the beach the first two weeks of June and to the mountains for a week in October. I have really bad anxiety before we go and don't want to go. It's split about 50-50 about what happens from there...I either enjoy it and was glad I came or my condition gets worse and I spend the time on vacation talking to my tdoc. A few times it's been mixed. You're not alone in that feeling and you're not ungrateful. I hope you start feeling better soon. Thinking of you.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by vertigo

Holidays are horrendous for me.

I may've already shared this, so forgive me if so. My brother-in-law works for Google and earns more than he knows what to do with, so my sister-in-law is taking the entire family to Hawaii for a week. I will be stuck living in the same house with all my in-laws when I know they don't understand what I go through. I certainly hope things go smoothly... for me, but for you, too, Liveforsummer.

Wow. Hawaii. I've always wanted to go. I'll be sending you good vibes. I hope things go smoothly with your in-laws and you enjoy everything Hawaii has to offer. Best wishes.

[~Christina]

My Husband and I would make 2-3 trips a yer to see the kids.. OH hell was horrible for me and I felt so guilty ,, Here I am and thrilled to see the kids yet I wanted to just go home

I went on one trip in particular that even my T really wanted me to put off and felt I needed IP actually... But plans had been made Kids took time off work etc... I have no idea how I survived that trip to be honest.

I find most all people with Bipolar dont react well to change in daily routines.

I recently moved to Florida for a year to see if my husband and I want to move back for good.... I actually managed pretty well .. But I think it was a case of not having to JAM in everything we wanted and needed to do in 5-10 days.

I hope your able to enjoy your trip at least a little

[liveforsummer]

I'm ok today. Enjoyed some beach time. Just have this antsy feeling like I'm counting down the days and that's not how I want to enjoy this.

[Standup2me]

I am a homebody, and don't like going on trips anywhere.
I find people often overwhelm me and when I am home, I can retreat into my own
home, my own sanctuary and find the peace that I need
When I am away, I feel sort of emotionally naked.

[bellamonte1984]

I'm sorry that you're having difficulty while being on vacation. It makes sense, you're away from your structured, familiar life. It's jarring to be uprooted sometimes.

If possible, I would try to find things to do that remind you of home, that are comforting wherever you go. If you like to read, or walk, or just take time to yourself, I would bask in your normal comforting activities so that it will distract you from being far away.

I hope you feel better!!

[Tkb1966]

I love vacationing and traveling but the anxiety and pull to just want to be home in my bedroom is always there too. Glad you're doing better and enjoying it a bit more.

[liveforsummer]

Possible trigger:

Sat on balcony this morning looking at the ocean just thinking what if I just swam away from shore and kept swimming out into the open

Distracting myself reading and doing laundry. Maybe swim after lunch.
Thank you everyone for your advice. It helps to post here.